How do you feel about your abuser/s?

[NaturalBornNEET]

By abuser I just mean anyone who has wronged you in any way and/or had an adverse impact on your life.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Using your definition i have only ever had one abuser in my life for as long as i can remember... and that person was,

MYSELF....

 

[DeathIsJustAJourney]

I recently did a sars file request to a local council to get their full names out my case files from growing up in kids homes so I can track them down,but since I'm under surveillance from cops they told the council not to give me those files no matter what! Typical isn't it,peado social services always protected by cops,but I will get a solicitor as it's my right to have those files and they can't refuse to give them,they must not realise there's other ways I can find their names out as online u can find anything with a bit of research and digging into cached sites

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

At least I outlived them.

 

[Douggy82]

It sucks when your abuser works with classified technology and uses the technology to harm your life. I don't even know what the a hole looks like.

 

[LastNite]

Wouldn't fit in the abusers category but it's people who bullied me for no reason when I was in school. I kind of don't care about it much but it was annoying and there wasn't really any reason behind the bullying. I didn't hurt no one, I didnt fight, I didnt annoy anyone. I always sat alone and didnt speak a word throughout all the years.

I hated these people at first but after a while I just didn't care about it.

 

[ReincarnatedGibbon]

i try to forgive, but it's difficult.

 

[AnEpilogue]

I try not to care, but I honestly still really hate them, all of them. Having to be around these people all the time sure doesn't help.

 

[moya117]

if theres is an afterlife, i dont want them to get tortured physically, or just random mental torture, i want them to feel MY pain that they caused. but thats just a false hope so i try to forget since i cant really forgive, i try to but its not 100% yk, if i did at one point, the rage came back like the next week or something

 

[Exiled]

I suffer from pretty severe stockholm syndrome so my guilt generally gets the better of me. After escaping them, I felt like I was hurting them and depriving them of abusing me - which somehow made me a "bad person" in my brain. It's rough. I reconnected with my abusers after having literally changed my last name, moving, and going on witness protection. No one understands what that's like until they're in it

 

[Moniker]

My dad abused me when I was young. It stopped when I was a teenager. Sometimes, I want to say I hate him. Other times, I don't have strong feelings towards him. Regardless, I don't like him.

 

[Pale_Rider]

That's a tough one.

 

[rowcrumble22]

when it comes to topics like this i often feel like a wounded dog, wanting some kind of love whinning and being pathetic but the main difference is that im not a dog im a human so that whinning and crying has no sort of repour or mercy. nobody is going to mend me because im not some animal despite being treated like one at times.
do i forgive them? if its my family yes. all the strangers no.

 

[darksouls]

back then I hated my mother for the violence she had inflicted on me and wanted to torture her just as she had tortured me
only the fear of prison stopped me
nowadays I feel only pity for that soulless old woman

 

[attheend13]

My abusers are thriving free of any repercussions. Certain they are good people, free from depression or consequences. My abusers prove to me that there is no value in life. Their good lives prove that life is meaningless. I don't hate them. They have shown me that my life is meaningless and I probably deserved all of it. Maybe I'm the evil one.

 

[Raindancer]

Trying to forgive and really have all but one, the one I was with the longest. Most of the time I would say I have, but I also hold onto my own responsibility. Forgiving myself is a whole other issue.

 

[dead-orchids]

We were both kids and we were both failed. We both deserved help, therapy, support when I told my mom what she was doing. It was just swept under the rug.

I hope she's gotten the help she needs and that she never hurts someone else like she did me. I hope she's doing ok, as long as it's far far away from me.

 

[cowboypants]

I wish I didn't had parents rather

 

[Griever]

If my abuser dies at some point, I hope it will be painful

 

[FishRain3469]

They didn't abuse me, 2 particular pieces of shit that I thought were my friends .... But they did beat the fuck out of their ( g/f, wife) in front of me on 2 different unrelated nights. For that, I would love to just blow both of their fucking brains out which I feel that they Very much deserve.

 

[2messdup]

No hate, just blank. Logical me knows they were wrong and evil. But blame and hate aren't there at all. I remember all the abuse and traumas as an emotionless narrative. Janina fisher work and the book "the body keeps the score" have informed me that the difficulties and mental pain I experience now come from all of that, but I experience them as now. My head can't understand it comes from then. Not sure if that makes sense but I understand what I'm trying to say.

 

[BlueLock]

A mixture of hatred and pity. I like to think I'm mostly apathetic towards her but deep down I know I'm still scared of her. Fuck you mom.

 

[divinemistress36]

I hope he rots in Hell

 

[Dyingoportunity]

I was terrified of this guy at first, but after seeing how pathetic he really is I just feel a mix of pity, anger, thirst for revenge, desperation for closure, and a wish that things would have been different.