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flutebloom

flutebloom

Member
Apr 4, 2025
76
Are you guys able to distract yourself with things? I find that I can't really watch tv or listen to music anymore. Nothing brings me peace or happiness or joy anymore. I'm just an empty shell of a person and I just hate that I want to kill myself.

It's like wanting to kill yourself is it's own hell because it's not easy to do it but I have this overwhelming desire to do it. It's terrible
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
829
Sorry to hear that. I think that condition is called anhedonia (nothing brings joy or pleasure anymore) It is usually accompanied with depression or schizophrenia. I have noticed it as well in my life, very few things brings me any pleasure anymore.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Wizard
May 10, 2025
689
Are you guys able to distract yourself with things? I find that I can't really watch tv or listen to music anymore. Nothing brings me peace or happiness or joy anymore. I'm just an empty shell of a person and I just hate that I want to kill myself.

It's like wanting to kill yourself is it's own hell because it's not easy to do it but I have this overwhelming desire to do it. It's terrible
since my beloved female dog left me I feel the same way as you
she passed away in 2020
sending you love ❤️
 
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Alexandra0

Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
429
Almost nothing can distract me from thoughts of suicide. Endless Groundhog Day and nothing brings joy. I'm sorry all this happened to you
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,524
I understand as I always find it so torturous to exist, to me existing really is just only suffering and I have no choice but to continue suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'll just always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to escape from this futile, torturous existence I just never would had chosen. I always wish I never suffered, I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result, I just want to never exist ever again, I really would never want to suffer in this existence no matter what.
 
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flutebloom

flutebloom

Member
Apr 4, 2025
76
Almost nothing can distract me from thoughts of suicide. Endless Groundhog Day and nothing brings joy. I'm sorry all this happened to you
Same boat… you can message me if you want. It helps me to talk to people
 

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