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Jun 3, 2021
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My history has been such that I have had great difficulty dealing with social situations because I am self-conscious of my thoughts. I have been told many times that people can not see my thoughts. However, a dynamic has been built in which I feel anxious about what to do with my thoughts. That coupled with perhaps some elements of thought broadcasting has caused me to do things meekly with others responding as if I am telling them to police my thoughts. In effect, my belief that people can hear my thoughts has become a self-fulfilling prophecy.

How would I go about changing this dynamic? How could I not let people see that I am anxious about whether the thoughts I have is right?
 
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Are you on antipsychotic meds?
 
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Jun 3, 2021
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Yes, clozapine. My psychiatrist added risperdal a while back but stopped it because I thought it might have been giving me a fast heartbeat. But stopping it changed nothing.
 
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It might be possible to curb runaway thoughts by intentionally exercising control such as doing multiplication tables. Even if only for a short time, such an exercise of conscious control might help.
 
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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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Yes, clozapine. My psychiatrist added risperdal a while back but stopped it because I thought it might have been giving me a fast heartbeat. But stopping it changed nothing.

What about other antipsychotics? Maybe something else might work. I know they often have many unpleasant side effects...
 
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I have an appointment in a few weeks. I will bring it up.
 
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