Help How do I stop being a pussy

[LIFE_IS_BUT_A_GAME]

Every time I try to hang myself SI kicks in after about 7 seconds of discomfort and I find some kind of way to free my neck from the noose.
Then I'll feel some kind of sense of purpose for the next few days but then depression comes back.
I hate this cycle I'm in and I want to either be able to just go through it without pussying out or to actually feel better (I'm on meds, been hospitalised, etc but it hasn't really helped, the only thing that kinda help was falling in love and texting a girl all the time until she stopped loving me and then I felt worse than before so I've kinda lost hope of ever being happy again)
Does anyone have any methods to stop SI?

 

[ipmanwc0]

I feel like full suspension is good for SI, you can't back out if done properly

 

[Terrible_Life]

I feel like full suspension is good for SI, you can't back out if done properly

Yes absolutely if you do full hanging those 7 seconds would be enough to already make your muscles way too weak to somehow stop the attempt.
I will also do full hanging and i will try when i hang fully to not even move my legs or hands while still conscious in those few seconds

 

[ipmanwc0]

Yes absolutely if you do full hanging those 7 seconds would be enough to already make your muscles way too weak to somehow stop the attempt.
I will also do full hanging and i will try when i hang fully to not even move my legs or hands while still conscious in those few seconds

I imagine you could probably tie your own hands too, i don't think the legs matter