How do I forgive myself for what I’ve done before I do it?

[MisterOGBongWater]

How to forgive myself before I end my life? I've done terrible things to people I love for selfish reasons. They hate me now. Is there any point in seeking forgiveness before I go? What's the point when you're dead?

Idk. I don't believe in god. And i can't come back. So nobody is gonna forgive me but me. But I can't even do that.

Idk I don't have a lot of time left. I know that much. I guess I just don't want to be remembered badly. I also want someone to care about me when I die. I want someone to miss me but I don't even have that anymore. I thought I wanted this but I don't. I'm really sorry

 

[a.dream.of.a.dream]

Seeking forgiveness from people you love is meaningful and you're still here so why not try?
Doing so might help you find forgiveness for yourself.

 

[Reflection]

Try seeking forgiveness and show it with actions, not just words. Even if they don't budge then at the very least it could help you forgive yourself.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think it's worth it. For them too- so that they realise that you are actually sorry. It shows you care about someone when you feel bad that you may have hurt them.

 

[AllTheseQuestions]

It depends, would re-inserting yourself in their lives cause them more harm? Is seeking forgiveness just another selfish desire?

I do not know your situation and I am projecting a bit here, but these are questions I pondered and decided against looking for forgiveness

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

It depends, would re-inserting yourself in their lives cause them more harm? Is seeking forgiveness just another selfish desire?

I do not know your situation and I am projecting a bit here, but these are questions I pondered and decided against looking for forgiveness

You're right.

 

[Valhala]

I don't think you should worry about things that you can't change and that you can't influence if you've tried everything to change it. I broke up with the only woman I truly loved, I hurt her and if I can't be with her anymore my life has become completely meaningless. Before I am CTB, I will try almost everything to get her back somehow, and if that doesn't work, I accept it as my fate, no matter how hard it is.