Discussion How do I die without actually CTBing ASAP?

[donttalktome]

Well, the problem is im like a lifeless doll no matter how much life beats my down. i already lost everything a long time ago, im practically just lying here on the side of the road but i still won't even attempt. There is no hope of any recovery or improvement for years already. 3 months ago a specialist doctor told me i won't live long cause i look like i have cachexia, too much weight loss and infinite diseases, and im still here. also i will have a grand mal seizure from benzo withdrawal soon, which should give me decent odds of dying i suppose? I don't know what else to do and how to finish this, if i can't force myself to kill myself no matter what I do. My body won't listen to me no matter what the reality is and what my thoughts are.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Well, the problem is im like a lifeless doll no matter how much life beats my down. i already lost everything a long time ago, im practically just lying here on the side of the road but i still won't even attempt. There is no hope of any recovery or improvement for years already. 3 months ago a specialist doctor told me i won't live long cause i look like i have cachexia, too much weight loss and infinite diseases, and im still here. also i will have a grand mal seizure from benzo withdrawal soon, which should give me decent odds of dying i suppose? I don't know what else to do and how to finish this, if i can't force myself to kill myself no matter what I do. My body won't listen to me no matter what the reality is and what my thoughts are.

I don't know if there's any way to do it. Humans are, unsurprisingly, very good at surviving. If you can't ctb, maybe they will eventually cause you to pass away. I don't see any way of doing it besides just waiting tho, unfortunately

 

[Forveleth]

Slather yourself in honey and find a bear? Genuinely, the only advice I have is just start doing really reckless stuff, skydiving, swim with sharks, rock climb with crappy equipment, etc. The problem is most deaths that result from reckless behavior are horrible and, if you live, your life will be even worse than it is now.

Unfortunately, life kind of keeps going unless you force it to stop early.