How bad is the following high school bullying experience?

[iwanttodie019]

(I am a male and all the bullies were male as well )

11 and 12(2018-2020) were the worst years of my life.I still have nightmare of those two years

grade 11:---

(I used to go there only once a month due to ragging(aka bullying),so went there only 7-8 days in whole year)

1)name calling

2)psychological torture:--

(bullies Used to watch 18+ videos and show me that(used to get a kick out of seeing my expression)

(taking my picture from behind)

3)pushing me and threatening will ruin your day

4)throwing paper from behind and catcalling

5)not letting me inside the seat,so that i have sit beside a girl

grade 12:----

(I was told to come twice a week due to low attendance)

So i went there twice a week but i used to sit far away due to fear of being bullied,

So,the bullying was not as intense as grade 11.But I still got bullieda few times.

This was the most traumatic and this happened in class 12.

1)I was sitting in the front seat(away from the bully because i was so paranoid).The bully came 4-5 seats from behind and threw garbage over me.

It was very traumatic

I never complained.I was trying to tough it out

 

[tonicer]

I was also bullied at a similar age range but it was also physical (i got kicked pretty hard at my leg when i was sitting down but the mocking was way worse and took every little bit of self esteem i had from me) i endured it for a while and became suicidal and stood at the train tracks after school a lot with the thought of laying my neck on the tracks but then one day i had an explosion of anger and fought back by throwing a desk (those small one seat things) at the guy. I had to change schools then and things got a little bit better.

 

[iwanttodie019]

I was also bullied at a similar age range but it was also physical (i got kicked pretty hard at my leg when i was sitting down but the mocking was way worse and took every little bit of self esteem i had from me) i endured it for a while and became suicidal and stood at the train tracks after school a lot with the thought of laying my neck on the tracks but then one day i had an explosion of anger and fought back by throwing a desk (those small one seat things) at the guy. I had to change schools then and things got a little bit better.

hey
1)which country(mine was india)
2)how old are you now(i am 25 now)
3)did you go to 11 12 regularly?(i used to skip 11 due to bullying-->read my question)
4)whose was worse?yours or mine?
yo

I was also bullied at a similar age range but it was also physical (i got kicked pretty hard at my leg when i was sitting down but the mocking was way worse and took every little bit of self esteem i had from me) i endured it for a while and became suicidal and stood at the train tracks after school a lot with the thought of laying my neck on the tracks but then one day i had an explosion of anger and fought back by throwing a desk (those small one seat things) at the guy. I had to change schools then and things got a little bit better.

u changed schools after 11?due to bullying?
I never changed schools or complained.I was trying to tough it out