Trainwreck
Student
- Sep 11, 2019
- 196
I've been in hospice for a couple months now, and with my gut problems, my nurse has said it's totally up to me whether or not I eat. I think an appropriate enough amount of time has passed that I can VSED (Voluntary Stopping Eating Drinking) without any questions being raised. After all, I imagine most hospice people choose to give up eating eventually. I had hoped for a faster method, but a morphine/Ativan OD is way too iffy since I don't know how much it would take to get the job done. I will hire a CNA to help take care of me between hospice nurse visits. This is going to really suck, because I hate the thought of wearing diapers and potentially going crazy while I dehydrate to death. But hopefully they'll be able to medicate me sufficiently (my nurse is super religious and doesn't approve of death with dignity states, so unfortunately there is no chance she'll "accidentally" overdose me). But if I can keep it together for a couple of weeks, hopefully it will be over. Of course, there is always the nightmare option of my body holding on for weeks, but I REALLY hope I go fast.
I won't selfban until I get close to the point of being unable to use my phone. Just wanted to thank everyone on the advice I got last fall. There's a lot of great people here!
Also, DO NOT VSED UNLESS YOU ARE IN A SITUATION SUCH AS MINE. I will have a nurse overseeing my care, I will be getting meds that (hopefully) will make me comfortable, and I will have a CNA to do awful things like change diapers and bathe me. To do this alone would be horrific, so please don't!
I won't selfban until I get close to the point of being unable to use my phone. Just wanted to thank everyone on the advice I got last fall. There's a lot of great people here!
Also, DO NOT VSED UNLESS YOU ARE IN A SITUATION SUCH AS MINE. I will have a nurse overseeing my care, I will be getting meds that (hopefully) will make me comfortable, and I will have a CNA to do awful things like change diapers and bathe me. To do this alone would be horrific, so please don't!
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