hopeless

[etherealspring]

I'm trying so fucking hard to recover but nothing is working. I'm so tired. I don't want to live this is excrutiating. therapy isnt working. meds arent working, trying to switch. what can i even do anymore??? couldnt even ctb bc im fucking useless.

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

I'm so sorry youre feeling this way. Are you experiencing just depression or other mental illnesses as well?

 

[etherealspring]

I'm so sorry youre feeling this way. Are you experiencing just depression or other mental illnesses as well?

just depression. ive had suicidal thoughts for around 8yrs but they have become active in the past few months. i want to get better. but i just hate being alive. im trying to like it more its just rlly hard rn

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

just depression. ive had suicidal thoughts for around 8yrs but they have become active in the past few months. i want to get better. but i just hate being alive. im trying to like it more its just rlly hard rn

I understand, my story is similar to yours. I've had depression for about 9 years but in the past year it's gotten much worse because I'm experiencing health problems that aren't deadly, but impact my quality of life.

It's good to hear that you're at least trying therapy and medication, even if it doesn't seem to have helped so far. I encourage you to keep trying medications, sometimes it just takes finding the right one and it can relieve a lot of your emotional pain. You can DM me if you ever want to talk!