Homeless and just got raped. I have to have sex to survive. Thinking about starving myself to death

[Tired_girl555]

I got raped last night by some guy I met online. I feel like I'm so tired of the guys I have sex with to have a meal and sometimes a warm place to sleep. I'm not sexually attracted to the majority of men I'm with and I'm tired of always having to do things I don't want to do just so I don't die. I tried starving myself to death once and I'm prepared to do it again. Hopefully with success this time. What are your tips on this method of suicide? Are there any other ways to go that I can do while I'm outside with no money that will kill my relatively quickly and painlessly? I'm down for any suggestions or advice. No I don't want to go to a shelter. Churches are actually pretty judgemental when you ask for food. And no I'm not able to get a job because all of my credentials either got stolen or were left in different places. Please no typical homeless wannabe supportive bullshit. Right now I'm in a tough spot and I've tried and the system doesn't work so I'd like to remain outside for now.

 

[MeSauce]

Rope? idk man, i feel bad for you, that is a tough situation to be in

 

[Tired_girl555]

It's OK. Just ready for it to end

 

[lotuss_biscoff]

I would suggest rope or falling, both are a lot faster than starving yourself. I'm sorry you're going through this, hoping the best for you.

 

[Romanticize]

yes, starving is incredibly long and painful. You will get huge physical pain, and also mental pain, true hallucinations, you will likely lose your mind. Not a cool way to go :(

People say rope, but it costs 5-10$ I guess, and for that money you can source SN. Depends on country you're in, in some it's easier than others (in Poland I bought 1 kilogram(!) of SN for $5 lol).
However if you can't source SN, I guess hanging, but be sure to make it full suspension, and take thin rope/cord, but not elastic one --> this way you maximize chances to cut flow in your arteries, and pass out in 15sec and die painlessly. (painless hangings are about 40-60%). However, if you screw up just a bit, the other half of hangings, are incredibly painful suffocations, so hanging is not preferred.

Depending on money/availability: Inert gas > Opioids+benzos > SN+benzos > Gun to the head. Rest of the methods are not very reliable or very painful. Best of these is hanging I guess, closely followed by jumping (at least 40-50m, head or torso first, onto concrete). Do not try methods like drowning, immolation, cutting or starvation.

 

[Kittywuzhere.]

Holy shit im so sorry that sounds awful but yeah starving or dehydrating r def not the ways to go that would just put u in more pain also don't try over the counter drugs bc it will most likely either take a long time and make ur last moments miserable or not work all together, I hope you can find sum peace after all the tragedy you've indured

 

[wham311]

What a travesty that people can't escape this fucking place

 

[Buh-bye!]

I got raped last night by some guy I met online. I feel like I'm so tired of the guys I have sex with to have a meal and sometimes a warm place to sleep. I'm not sexually attracted to the majority of men I'm with and I'm tired of always having to do things I don't want to do just so I don't die. I tried starving myself to death once and I'm prepared to do it again. Hopefully with success this time. What are your tips on this method of suicide? Are there any other ways to go that I can do while I'm outside with no money that will kill my relatively quickly and painlessly? I'm down for any suggestions or advice. No I don't want to go to a shelter. Churches are actually pretty judgemental when you ask for food. And no I'm not able to get a job because all of my credentials either got stolen or were left in different places. Please no typical homeless wannabe supportive bullshit. Right now I'm in a tough spot and I've tried and the system doesn't work so I'd like to remain outside for now.

That's horrific, wouldn't you do something about the guy who did it? It'd be understandable if choose not to too because of how much you have to bear at the moment, but it would be wrong if gets to be normal without any consequences, he shouldn't be around other people.
I don't know a good method myself, and ain't much aware of starving ( looks like a lot of survival instinct ) so can't be helpful there. Just wish you luck with any and all of it, whatever you choose to do, whatever life decision you make.
It really is tough to be in situations that you've been in. I do feel sorry for you.

 

[iamanavalanche]

giving you so many hugs. im so sorry youre in this position. my heart reaches out to you

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Wish I could wave a magic wand and make things better for you, make all the wrongness disappear. You are in my thoughts.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

This really breaks my heart. I'm so sorry that you're in such an awful situation. I wish things were better, you deserve that. Hugs

 

[Defect]

im sorry to hear that. as said above starving is horrible way to die painful and long. you would probably not manage to do it simply from primal instinct to eat something will at some point win.

i don't know your situation but i guess finding something sharp to cut veins is relative ease

i wish that you can find peace and relief

 

[notreallybored]

im sorry to hear that. as said above starving is horrible way to die painful and long. you would probably not manage to do it simply from primal instinct to eat something will at some point win.

i don't know your situation but i guess finding something sharp to cut veins is relative ease

i wish that you can find peace and relief

ב''ה,
All this just because someone prayed to get the cleanup work after, and maybe sell the fuel depending how the body is disposed of. This world really is a shithole.

 

[darksouls]

I got raped last night by some guy I met online. I feel like I'm so tired of the guys I have sex with to have a meal and sometimes a warm place to sleep. I'm not sexually attracted to the majority of men I'm with and I'm tired of always having to do things I don't want to do just so I don't die. I tried starving myself to death once and I'm prepared to do it again. Hopefully with success this time. What are your tips on this method of suicide? Are there any other ways to go that I can do while I'm outside with no money that will kill my relatively quickly and painlessly? I'm down for any suggestions or advice. No I don't want to go to a shelter. Churches are actually pretty judgemental when you ask for food. And no I'm not able to get a job because all of my credentials either got stolen or were left in different places. Please no typical homeless wannabe supportive bullshit. Right now I'm in a tough spot and I've tried and the system doesn't work so I'd like to remain outside for now.

I am so sorry for your terrible situation

hope you find relief from your suffering

 

[bankai]

Take it from someone who's fasted very long times for the autophagy and the seeming health benefits.And I'm talking weeks. Yeah, well. You're just not going to die this way. The record for this sort of fasting is actually more than a year. The human body has a lot of fat on it, even for a thin person. It will eat into both the fat and muscle overtime during fasting. Holocaust victims survived for years while becoming emaciated. Please just don't consider fasting as a method. That's all.

 

[Life'sA6itch]

What a travesty that people can't escape this fucking place

 

[SpinandPainr]

A few years ago I was in a similar sitch (street sw, so no protections and I don't trust cops). I found that NA meetings would let me come in and breathe and have a cup of Coffee and my dissolved state was not seen as unusual. I know the religious aspect may be discomforting for some, but maybe general support groups to give you a place to put your head. I'm very sorry you had this experience. us sex workers are so regularly dehumanized :(