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[kiko]

Its been getting.worse since september, i was in psych for 2mths or more and began to get momentium a little after discharge. i crashed a couple of weeks ago and began isolating because i cant perform socially due to alterations of my mind on my medication.

I left the house for a psych appointment today and that already threw me.off being out of.my comfort zone but the psychiatrist is a the rudest man and didnt give any attention to whats going on with me.only that there was marajuana in my stystem.

Ive been on edge and sitting across from the hardware shop searching the chemicals in rat poision and hope to CTB in.the coming days when i sort out a few affairs.

Ive been waiting for N but just cant afford it yet and SN is banned in my country

 

[BipolarExpat]

Sorry it's so hard, kiko. I'm also feeling very desperate and due to my location/situation have very few (and unfavorable) options.

Maybe this can distract you for a bit if only to take a short break from your frustrations.

 

[BPD_LE]

I wouldn't advise this my friend. It is very unpleasant and painful.

 

[neilo99]

I agree with BPD_LE. This would be agony I imagine, and could take between hours and days to work. There are different rat poisons as well with differing ingredients

 

[Sweet emotion]

Oh sweetie don't do that. I wouldn't recommend that at all. It's going to be painful and who knows how much you'll need or how long it's going to take you to die. I suggest you do some research into other methods.

 

[Nem]

Agreed. Feed the rat poison to the psychiatrist!!!
Peace/hugs!

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

I know your desperate. But if your serious about ctb, you deserve something more peaceful. After all the pain u been through in life, Id hate to see you go that way.

 

[Darkhaven]

Sorry it's so hard, kiko. I'm also feeling very desperate and due to my location/situation have very few (and unfavorable) options.

Maybe this can distract you for a bit if only to take a short break from your frustrations.

Is that youtube channel yours?

 

[passenger27]

Yikes I don't think I'd try rat poison. There's way better ways to ctb.

 

[BipolarExpat]

Is that youtube channel yours?

no sir

 

[Rachel74]

It's a horrible painful death. Please rethink OP x

 

[Darkhaven]

no sir

Oh sorry, i was just trying to know if you were that beautiful heavy metal girl from the image.

 

[BipolarExpat]

Oh sorry, i was just trying to know if you were that beautiful heavy metal girl from the image.

understood

no such luck tho I'm a guy

And... I think she's goth