Hi, its me...

[Monachopsis]

Hi
I've been wanting to leave for a while. I've tried multiple times. But I cant go through with it. I've been on all sorts of medications, I've been to hospitals, I've seen a plethora of therapists, psychiatrists, nurse practitioners, mental health associates, but I can never stop feeling this way. The worse part of it is, is that my existence really hurts my family. I don't know if I can continue to do that.
There's a small part of me that wants to stay. It makes no sense though. I have no reason.
How do I not be so scared? How do go through with this?
Should I?

 

[tevati]

Nobody can answer this for you. I think you still have some hope feel better. What for methods you tried? You could try SN or fentanyl. First step would be order that stuff which is for some people already a big thing.

 

[Schopenhauer]

The desirability of suicide is something only the concerned individual can answer. Don't look for your external validation for your choice, because no one other than yourself can validate it.

With that said, have you thought about Nembutal? It's not cheap, but it's the best method out there. Depending on where you live, you may get it quickly.

And welcome to the forums!

 

[NewDelhiGuy]

The desirability of suicide is something only the concerned individual can answer. Don't look for your external validation for your choice, because no one other than yourself can validate it.

With that said, have you thought about Nembutal? It's not cheap, but it's the best method out there. Depending on where you live, you may get it quickly.

And welcome to the forums!

In my opinion nitrogen /hypoxia is the best method..somewhere i read that it is also euphoric due to dmt release in the end.

 

[Monachopsis]

I've tried Excedrin and also I slit down my brachial artery

 

[Monachopsis]

In my opinion nitrogen /hypoxia is the best method..somewhere i read that it is also euphoric due to dmt release in the end.

Where would a person find things like this

 

[NewDelhiGuy]

Where would a person find things like this

Try to arrange an inert gas filled cylender , like of Nitrogen, argon. You can download the peaceful pill book from the resource section..you can search for nitrogen in the forum. There is plenty of information. I would suggest start with reading the book i mentioned.

 

[Schopenhauer]

In my opinion nitrogen /hypoxia is the best method..somewhere i read that it is also euphoric due to dmt release in the end.

It's not a bad method, either. But a little convoluted to set up, though.

 

[NewDelhiGuy]

It's not a bad method, either. But a little convoluted to set up, though.

Only difficult part is installing the pressure regulator / flow meter... Rest is easy..
. I understand if someone is completely bed ridden due to terminal illness for him it will be difficult.
Deathoverlife made the exit bag herself with some strings..which she used.s . she sent me the pic of it.

 

[NewDelhiGuy]

It's not a bad method, either. But a little convoluted to set up, though.

Only difficult part is installing the pressure regulator / flow meter... Rest is easy..
. I understand if someone is completely bed ridden due to terminal illness for him it will be difficult.
Deathoverlife made the exit bag herself with some strings..which she used.

It's not a bad method, either. But a little convoluted to set up, though.

I am still not yet recovered of what deathoverlife did...