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no.one

no.one

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So I was on the SN bus, but with how things have been going in the US, and also with DMC, I'm unsure that method will be attainable. Maybe once everything calms down.... but I am not sure I'll be here when it does. My second method was going to be a gunshot. I currently do not own a gun, but I can obtain one. If not by purchase, I can visit my family, who have plenty. I've measured and read where exactly you should aim to hit the important parts. I just don't really want to leave that mess for anyone to clean up. Not my family, the rescue squad, or the maids/cleaners. I've always been a person who tries to take up as little space as possible. So leaving behind that kind of mess makes me feel bad. If i could, im sure my spirit would be trying to clean it up before anyone got there!:pfff:

That's besides the point; the other 2 options were partial hanging and the amitriptyline route. I am prescribed it, and because I struggle with being consistent with my meds, I have hoarded a decent amount. I believe I still have 1 more refill also. Because I've just moved to a new state and finally got approved for their Medicaid, I can obtain more when I get a doctor if necessary. I have 2 different brands of antiemetics.

I know pills are unreliable. I am aware that it isn't 100%—even the PPH 2025 says its 62% effective. I'd rather swallow a drink out of my 4 options. Although I enjoy being choked in bed (haha), I think I will panic last minute during the partial hanging, and i am afraid my SI will kick in with the gun and I may miss my target.

If anyone is familiar with medication, specifically Amitriptyline- please DM me!
 
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locked*n*loaded

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This person was found within 12 hours. I think the key to this med is time.
Idk. OD's, in general, are unpredictable, at best.
 
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no.one

no.one

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Idk. OD's, in general, are unpredictable, at best.
I know you replied to this a while ago; I took a small break from SS. Anyhow, that is my one hesitation. Most everyone is aware that ODs are not reliable, but because this is in the book I am more curious about it. I am also wondering—well, never mind. I was going to say how dated that information may be, but it is in the most recent edition.

As far as time, I have ways to get a hotel and be gone for 24 hours or longer. That's not an issue. ❤️
 
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I know you replied to this a while ago; I took a small break from SS. Anyhow, that is my one hesitation. Most everyone is aware that ODs are not reliable, but because this is in the book I am more curious about it. I am also wondering—well, never mind. I was going to say how dated that information may be, but it is in the most recent edition.

As far as time, I have ways to get a hotel and be gone for 24 hours or longer. That's not an issue. ❤️
I guess the question is, now, if you decide that method, can you get that amount of pills down. That's a lot of pills to be swallowing.
 
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no.one

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I guess the question is, now, if you decide that method, can you get that amount of pills down. That's a lot of pills to be swallowing.
I purchased a mortar and pestle. I was thinking of grinding them up since I have such a high stock of them and mixing them with water. Also, fasting prior, I'm just not sure how long. I definitely don't want to go so long that when I do take the mixture, I vomit them up. I cannot replace them, at least... I wouldn't be able to for a while. Thank you so much for chatting with me about this! I know it's not like... a long, lengthy conversation, but just the effort replying when we all have things we are dealing with means a lot, so thank you ❤️.
 
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purchased a mortar and pestle.
YW. Yeah, that's a way. I wish you the best should you decide to move forward with this. And even if you don't. And, ofc, peace, as well.
 
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I purchased a mortar and pestle. I was thinking of grinding them up since I have such a high stock of them and mixing them with water. Also, fasting prior, I'm just not sure how long. I definitely don't want to go so long that when I do take the mixture, I vomit them up. I cannot replace them, at least... I wouldn't be able to for a while. Thank you so much for chatting with me about this! I know it's not like... a long, lengthy conversation, but just the effort replying when we all have things we are dealing with means a lot, so thank you ❤️.
This is my plan as well. I'm going to rent a hotel for 2 days, take an anti-emetic like gravol a few hours before I plan on doing it, order an alcoholic beverage through room service, put the do not disturb sign on the door and grind up the Amitriptyline and Clonazepam (I have about 10g of amitriptyline, but I'll probably just take 7g or 8g, and 50mg of clonazepam) and mix it in warm water, get into bed, drink it fast and then have another glass of water with a few ritz crackers. I also have 60mg of dilaudid that I could throw in the mix for good measure. I'm pretty confident this will do the trick. Many people have died from amitriptyline overdose. There's a website in the UK that lists a bunch of suicide deaths and what they died from http://antidepaware.co.uk/inquest-reports/inquests-2020-2/ it doesn't give specifics like dose, but many have died from amitriptyline alone or with other medications (probably benzos and maybe opiods).
 

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