Help with suicide plans

[nakagawadestroy]

hii I really need your help! I really want to finally rest and so I planned on taking buprenorphine (6mg aprox, like six pills of it) and lorazepam (2 mg, 5 pills), and roboxin (500mg, 6 pills). would this be enough? I plan on going out at 12 in the midnight and do it somewhere that will take a while for people to notice, probably like 6 hours minimum.
Would it really work? or should I do something more? I cant get ahold of more pills, but please give me ideas to really make sure I wont survive. Should I hang myself as I am about to faint so that way hanging doesnt hurt much? read the megathread but no ideas :( please I really need to do it tomorrow.

 

[Freedomm]

Don't do this, it will only hurt you. Familiarize yourself with reliable methods.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide
I wish you the best
hope you find relief from suffering

 

[fedup1982]

Don't do this, it will only hurt you. Familiarize yourself with reliable methods.

I agree

So I'm afraid I have bad news for you.

Firstly, prescription drugs are designed and controlled in such a way that death with them is almost impossible these days.

Secondly, no amount of drugs will make hanging any less unbearable than what would be enough to kill you anyway. In other words, hanging is an awful, awful way to go and the only drugs that would make it tolerable would basically put you in a coma, and unless you're a doctor, or the chemist from breaking bad, you won't have access to such drugs.

I'm sorry to break all that bad news. The only way to peacefully pass reliably without serious risks of permanent damage is euthanasia. Governments unfortunately seem to intentionally make suicide extremely hard and/or extremely risky. Unfortunately that's the world we're living in. And things just seem to be getting increasingly hard, if you ignore the fact that the trend is that more and more states and countries are looking to introduce frameworks for legal euthanasia

The obvious exception to this is if you live in the USA in which case guns are everywhere and it probably wouldn't be too hard to get one even if you have mental health difficulties but even there, the risks of imprisonment are serious enough to make it a no brainer not to do.

If you can travel, there might be one or two other options but there are difficulties, risks and costs.

 

[nakagawadestroy]

Don't do this, it will only hurt you. Familiarize yourself with reliable methods.

the thing is that a month ago I tried hanging myself, fainted but since I was drunk I tied the rope incorrectly (like no knot even) and it came undone. Everything feels horrible since then. I feel like such a failiure and life keeps getting worse and worse

 

[unluckysadness]

Overdose medication is not reliable. You'll need to find something else. Good luck and please take your time if you can. To fail and going to the hospital is not a good option. Take care with methods

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Why ODs Fail Miserably (A Guide)

There's still a lot of questions and inquiries about ODs, and people asking about what things may facilitate a successful attempt. Let's be clear, ODs are rarely fatal. Why? For a couple of reasons: (1) modern medications are designed to be very safe, as manufacturers aim to avoid deaths that...

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Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

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[nakagawadestroy]

Overdose medication is not reliable. You'll need to find something else. Good luck and please take your time if you can. To fail and going to the hospital is not a good option. Take care with methods

so then what do you guys recommend? I have no access to most of the stuff on the megathread. would it be a good idea to take all of the pills and drown in some pool? I am thinking about trying to hang myself again but with the pills and more alcohol (and this time tying it correctly), it felt really nice

 

[unluckysadness]

Sorry but it's against the rules to give you any advice. It must be your personal choice. I wish you good luck but it must me reliable if you wanna succeed. I wish meds could be reliable but it's not the case

 

[nakagawadestroy]

Sorry but it's against the rules to give you any advice. It must be your personal choice. I wish you good luck but it must me reliable if you wanna succeed. I wish meds could be reliable but it's not the case

mm okay thank you! I'll study a bit the megathread and decide. I'll do my best tonight!

 

[cookiencream]

I agree

So I'm afraid I have bad news for you.

Firstly, prescription drugs are designed and controlled in such a way that death with them is almost impossible these days.

Secondly, no amount of drugs will make hanging any less unbearable than what would be enough to kill you anyway. In other words, hanging is an awful, awful way to go and the only drugs that would make it tolerable would basically put you in a coma, and unless you're a doctor, or the chemist from breaking bad, you won't have access to such drugs.

I'm sorry to break all that bad news. The only way to peacefully pass reliably without serious risks of permanent damage is euthanasia. Governments unfortunately seem to intentionally make suicide extremely hard and/or extremely risky. Unfortunately that's the world we're living in. And things just seem to be getting increasingly hard, if you ignore the fact that the trend is that more and more states and countries are looking to introduce frameworks for legal euthanasia

The obvious exception to this is if you live in the USA in which case guns are everywhere and it probably wouldn't be too hard to get one even if you have mental health difficulties but even there, the risks of imprisonment are serious enough to make it a no brainer not to do.

If you can travel, there might be one or two other options but there are difficulties, risks and costs.

Hanging is an awful way to go?

 

[SadCryingBunny]

I agree

So I'm afraid I have bad news for you.

Firstly, prescription drugs are designed and controlled in such a way that death with them is almost impossible these days.

Secondly, no amount of drugs will make hanging any less unbearable than what would be enough to kill you anyway. In other words, hanging is an awful, awful way to go and the only drugs that would make it tolerable would basically put you in a coma, and unless you're a doctor, or the chemist from breaking bad, you won't have access to such drugs.

I'm sorry to break all that bad news. The only way to peacefully pass reliably without serious risks of permanent damage is euthanasia. Governments unfortunately seem to intentionally make suicide extremely hard and/or extremely risky. Unfortunately that's the world we're living in. And things just seem to be getting increasingly hard, if you ignore the fact that the trend is that more and more states and countries are looking to introduce frameworks for legal euthanasia

The obvious exception to this is if you live in the USA in which case guns are everywhere and it probably wouldn't be too hard to get one even if you have mental health difficulties but even there, the risks of imprisonment are serious enough to make it a no brainer not to do.

If you can travel, there might be one or two other options but there are difficulties, risks and costs.

How about nitrogen gas inhalation at 50l per minute flow rate for 15 minutes. Will that allow me to ctb? I want to go. I'm suffering so much.

 

[fedup1982]

Hanging is an awful way to go?

It really is. I tried it, giving my self a way out if it was too unpleasant, and I'm glad it was, I tried a number of times with different knots, different ropes and every time it was unbearable. I dread to think what people go through who don't make it undoble. Don't get me wrong, I really envy them being able to exit this life but that method is impossible for me no matter how bad life gets

 

[Manic Panic]

Overdosing isn't reliable so many things could go wrong. I suggest you find a reliable method on here and do plenty of research.

 

[cookiencream]

It really is. I tried it, giving my self a way out if it was too unpleasant, and I'm glad it was, I tried a number of times with different knots, different ropes and every time it was unbearable. I dread to think what people go through who don't make it undoble. Don't get me wrong, I really envy them being able to exit this life but that method is impossible for me no matter how bad life gets

I've tried too and now I'm traumatized from it....

 

[fedup1982]

I've tried too and now I'm traumatized from it....

Sounds like your experience was even worse than mine!! Hard to imagine yet I'm sure it's possible since I quit before it could get even worse. I'm sorry you went through that. How are you doing now?

 

[cookiencream]

Sounds like your experience was even worse than mine!! Hard to imagine yet I'm sure it's possible since I quit before it could get even worse. I'm sorry you went through that. How are you doing now?

I feel good but I still want to die...it's weird I want to end it before it gets worse. But I also want it to get worse so I can have the strength to do it

 

[fedup1982]

I feel good but I still want to die...it's weird I want to end it before it gets worse. But I also want it to get worse so I can have the strength to do it

Yeah I know that feeling too. I've been telling AI again and again that I need motivation to jump at beachy head cliffs because I don't want to go on living and I have to ignore the chance that I could land at the bottom suffering terribly, but I need motivation to do it, and weirdly it's because I'm too comfortable/lazy right now to bother

 

[cookiencream]

Yeah I know that feeling too. I've been telling AI again and again that I need motivation to jump at beachy head cliffs because I don't want to go on living and I have to ignore the chance that I could land at the bottom suffering terribly, but I need motivation to do it, and weirdly it's because I'm too comfortable/lazy right now to bother

Yeah same, I'm too comfortable rn to get over SI.