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Izzythebelle

Izzythebelle

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Mar 8, 2025
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today was exhausting. It was hot and we were short handed and now my back hurts. I'm too tired to pull the trigger. I can't even lift my arm to aim it tonight. The door's unlocked and I hope I get robbed tonight. Maybe they'll shoot me. If not them, maybe the cops. I'm really sad you cancelled. I was really hoping for pizza tonight. I'm not even depressed at this point, just painfully disappointed. It's KFC tonight because I miss it and I really don't need to care about my diet anymore. Maybe if I try hard enough I can manifest a heart attack. I hate this life. I wish I lived in the other one, the one we dreamed of. Do you remember anything about it? The world under the table? The one we drew in crayons and mustard and paint? I'm exhausted, ******. I reallly dont want to wake up this time.

i love you. goodnight to whoever's reading.

peace up <3
 
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whywere

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I hope that you get a great night's sleep and get some much-needed rest.

I reread your thread a lot and I came away with such a huge feeling of caring and kindness that radiates from you.

You are never alone as I consider you family and family always pulls together and helps each other with love, caring hugs and the knowledge that you ARE so very important.

I have no one at all and that is why folks like YOU are so very important as family.

Sleep well and I am wishing you a much better day filled with caring thoughts as you always are a wonderful friend, always.

Walter
 
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