Have you lost your will to live?

[DivineSpark]

Should I just keep living for sake of living?

 

[Carrot]

I have lost my will to live, I hope my SN will work when I get the chance to use it.

It's up to you to decide what to do. It's possible to make the best out of a bad situation if you want to try.

 

[bankai]

Well, to be honest. I'm living for the sake of living. I lost my will to live a long time ago. But I still understand I guess the beauty of life.I want to give it my utmost to the very end.

I'm sure the day will come though. When I just decided to pull the trigger and begone.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

yes i want to die everyday. there is no getting better nor me ever enjoying anything.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Yes. I guess Im just waiting for old age though.

 

[Doll Steak]

Yeah, I'm not actively planning anything though, its just more of a thought like "if I die I die, whatever."

 

[Hollowman]

I've lost and regained it many times, it's exhausting.

 

[wham311]

Yea gone. My life ended in October. Now I just exist.

 

[itwillhappensoon]

I lost my will to live a long time ago , now I'm watching things happen around me , I already given up

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I definitely have a somewhat will to live, I just don't have the will to actually put in the effort and try.

 

[FuneralCry]

I never had one, I never wished to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence, for me existence is the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I want is to never suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake ever again, I find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence rather all I hope for is non-existence where all is gone and forgotten. I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is just all I see as positive in this dreadful, futile existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

I didn't even want to be here. If I could have had the chance to choose knowing how this would work, I wouldn't have chosen this absurdity. No pleasurable moment I've ever experienced is worth going through so many totally unnecessary inconveniences. For me, having to eliminate the residue of what we eat by defecating is as absurd as a debilitating disease. In short, nothing that life presents is worth anything. Everything is so absurd that in my mind I can't imagine that this was created. As all the evidence shows, it was just an accident.

 

[SeafoamSkeleton]

I can't remember ever having a will to live. Survival instinct, sure, that's probably why I'm still here. But my will to die isn't quite enough to actually successfully complete suicide. My willpower is just in ruins in general.

 

[Dejected 55]

My will to live has never been strong... but it was passable, until last year. Now it is all gone.

 

[PI3.14]

Yes, I no longer have the slightest will to live.

 

[jbdCkFqV]

I don't have a will to live, but I'm continuing to live out of inertia. If that is living for the sake of living then I don't recommend it.

 

[The Unanswered Q]

Why would you be on here if you had a will to live?

 

[zixd]

long time ago , i just cope as a mirror

 

[starboy2k]

Im living on autopilot. That will come to an end one day especially when I get my "bye bye salt".

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, pretty much. I'm really just holding on now out of obligation and fear of attempting.

 

[davidtorez]

The only reason I'm still around is my upcoming wedding next year. I finally found someone who understands me because they also suffer from depression and suicidality . We applied for her visa to come be with me , and if her visa gets rejected I'm out.

 

[bananaolympus]

I lost it long time ago

 

[Seaghost]

Well there is a rest of willing to live
BUT
that makes no sense nor helps me when I can't cure things in me. I'm tired and exhausted of only fixing symptoms and not beeing able to have a normally life. And all the way down the road you'll see how your friends and relatives developing further.
Thats no life. But the willing to live gets more down the sink.
But it hurts so much...so much.

 

[darkshadownice]

Well, I'm back on this site so yes. I am in fact very, very close to CTB. Everything requires so much effort, even the most simplest of tasks like getting out of bed or talking to people. It's like trying to move through thick mud, it's exhausting. Only thing keeping me going is SI anymore, well that and food.
I got my SN, and I'm hitting the ejector seat soon. Everything seems fucked anyways. Our political landscape is 20x worse than it was 20 years ago. People are on the verge of murdering each other at this point. Then there's the recent murder of politicians in Wisconsin that just vanished out of the media cycle within a day. Our wealth income inequality is worse than ever before. Our justice system is utterly broken and useless now, and the courts are being defanged at record pace.

What's the point? I'd stay if I had any willpower to enjoy life, but even if I did, I know I'm going to suffer in a country that's going to hell real fast and real soon. I'm only 25, but I think I've lived long enough to know that it doesn't end well. Might as well end it on my own terms.

 

[S like Siren]

I belive something happened in 2015 inside me.
As if someone had since then turned off the light switch inside me.
I don't think I've ever really recovered from that day.

 

[tulero]

yep, after finishing university

were my best years, but after that and start working everything vanished

 

[kitkat9234]

Lost my will to live years ago. I'm barely functioning and am an empty shell just existing. I'm only here because the fear of failure, scared what happens after and my daughter who is better off without me. I'm trapped and just want to end me.

 

[Darkover]

you can't lose the will to live if you never had it in the first place logical give the choice to exists here before coming here knowing full well the earth is a shithole and hellhole i would of chose the sanctuary of non existence

 

[Nobodi]

Yes I have. I'm struggling just to get out of bed it's been so rough

 

[usernamesarehard]

I guess? I don't know if hope or inertia that's keeping me alive, but yeah I don't have much will. I'm very tired. And tired of having hope for a future I know I won't have.

Should I just keep living for sake of living?

Yeah, if that's what you want. No one can tell you if you should ctb or not, only you can decide that.