beyond.space
"an elegant suicide is the ultimate work of art"
- Oct 30, 2025
- 44
I've been struggling for the past months to find good distractions from my wanting to CTB and, since nothing really works anymore and I'm anhedonic as ever, I just resorted to watching really miserable movies hoping I could at least relate to the main characters.
I started researching about films that accurately portray suicide ideation and have it as a main theme. They are very few, but I've found this gem, which I sort of knew about in the past but never really gave it a shot: "Un home qui dort". It's a 1974 french movie that I feel absolutely nails the depression, loneliness and alienation themes, constantly discussing the character's numbness and, ultimately, despair that I really can relate to. While I don't remember if it's explicitly communicated that the character is suicidal, his hoplessness, pessimism and, later in the movie, hatred towards the world, cannot (in my opinion) really be hinting at anything else but suicidal ideation. I really believe it's the best depiction of the existential sentiments people like me, maybe like you, might have while being suicidal, since they are very, and I mean very, profoundly portrayed and not only addressed in a superficial manner like I've seen in other flicks.
Note that I don't agree with the last couple of minutes of the movie, as the "resolution" seems rushed and really inconsistent with what's been shown and told up until that point, but they can just be ignored.
I really recommend you give it a watch, it's fairly short and, if you want to see it in HD (since it's old and on YouTube it's only in really bad quality), try searching for it on you know what websites by its english name: "The man who sleeps".
I started researching about films that accurately portray suicide ideation and have it as a main theme. They are very few, but I've found this gem, which I sort of knew about in the past but never really gave it a shot: "Un home qui dort". It's a 1974 french movie that I feel absolutely nails the depression, loneliness and alienation themes, constantly discussing the character's numbness and, ultimately, despair that I really can relate to. While I don't remember if it's explicitly communicated that the character is suicidal, his hoplessness, pessimism and, later in the movie, hatred towards the world, cannot (in my opinion) really be hinting at anything else but suicidal ideation. I really believe it's the best depiction of the existential sentiments people like me, maybe like you, might have while being suicidal, since they are very, and I mean very, profoundly portrayed and not only addressed in a superficial manner like I've seen in other flicks.
Note that I don't agree with the last couple of minutes of the movie, as the "resolution" seems rushed and really inconsistent with what's been shown and told up until that point, but they can just be ignored.
I really recommend you give it a watch, it's fairly short and, if you want to see it in HD (since it's old and on YouTube it's only in really bad quality), try searching for it on you know what websites by its english name: "The man who sleeps".
