Discussion Has anyone else wasted this entire year?

[VVL]

I do nothing to try to fix my current situation and I'm too much of a coward to end it all, so I've just been stuck here watching the days pass by while I get more depressed by the month. 2024 is almost over and now I realize that fuck I literally just rotten in bed for another whole year.

 

[yowai]

Yup, I already had these thoughts months ago so at least I'm mentally prepared for this time of the year lol

 

[lnlybnny]

Yep. Did absolutely nothing for the tenth consecutive year

 

[over2025]

Yep and I had no life experiences and 0 additions to my already non existent social circle

 

[finalkarma]

yes and i realized this is the 3rd year doing this...it sucks so bad rn ://

 

[helloandbye1]

I've wasted my entire life tbh

 

[Unknown21]

I've wasted my entire life tbh

Same, literally living the same day for 22 years.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

My year was pretty wasted as well. I spent a lot of time sitting on my butt, and the few things I tried to do didn't work out at all. The only I thing I managed to do was get on disability, which is kind of pointless since I'm CTBing soon anyway.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I've not only managed to completely waste this year, I also destroyed my career, finances, housing situation, relationships, and everything else that I had been working on for the past 20 years.

 

[RoyalBengalAutistic]

Me

 

[princessame]

2024 has absolutely NOT been my year. when i look back on the past few months, it literally consists of me rotting away in my room.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Yes! Everything is getting worse and I did absolutely nothing to improve my life.

 

[brain-fog]

Yes, but I don't care anymore, I wasted most of my life!

 

[Overwhelmed52]

I have some things I'm lucky to have and don't want to lose, but I also have to live with some big things that I wish were different but never will be. That keeps me down and from getting more done. I hope something good happens for everyone else. Hugs.

 

[twistedtransistor69]

yup, I'm in the exact same boat. hate doing nothing but can't bring myself to fix it. I can't live another year like this

 

[anagram]

Me too. I've done nothing of value. I've only been remembering my past traumas deeper after being clean off psych meds. It feels good to know the truth tbh. I like crying about it and remembering because it's a catharsis. Psych meds made my emotions and my mind numb like i was a zombie. Such an ignorant state to be in. I couldnt think or imagine anything.
Perhaps now I have stronger motivation to die.

 

[FinalVoid25]

Yeah same...and thats basically my whole 22 years of life, always rotting away while everyone around me accomplishes goals

 

[Forever Sleep]

I had a really busy year but it's more that I'm at the stage that none of it matters. I mean, I suppose it does in terms of- I've earnt enough not to be homeless so- I've prevented things from becoming worse I guess. But, in terms of feeling like I've achieved anything- no. I'm still a hamster in a wheel taking a brief moment to catch my breath before I have to start running frantically again. That's the worst of it. I don't feel like I can face another full on year but, I feel like the choice not to- death isn't a morally comfortable possibility at the moment and destitution seems worse so, I know I effectively don't have a choice. And I'm so resentful about it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally just see it as a waste to exist in general, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless, unnecessary suffering, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of existing as a human and the fact that this existence was imposed is a terrible tragedy to me. I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this at all and I see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me and I continue to be enslaved in this existence I never would have chosen, existence itself will always feel like the problem to me no matter what, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and die anyway.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes. I absolutely wasted all 2024 , every year every day I've been alive wasted.

All others have accomplished goals. But what's that going to get them. They like I will die . And after Death they won't remember anything because they won't exist. In 150 years it will be as if none of us ever existed

 

[czzod]

i 100% feel like i have. i started college this year and i felt so useless because i never broke free of my old habits from high school its so fucking embarrassing to me. i have yet to clean my room this past month and i feel like everything is going so slowly. it feels like nothing i do will matter in the grand scheme of things so i've just been rotting away honestly

 

[i love yoshi ^-^]

I do nothing to try to fix my current situation and I'm too much of a coward to end it all, so I've just been stuck here watching the days pass by while I get more depressed by the month. 2024 is almost over and now I realize that fuck I literally just rotten in bed for another whole year.

not only wasted. i feel i made it worse, especially my negligence that i really hate, but i am not negligent on purpose i cant bring myself to function no matter how hard i try --

 

[ijustwishtodie]

My life is a waste no matter what I do with it. Ending the waste can only be achieved by ending my life

 

[LastLoveSong]

um yeah but i wasted my entire life so i dont know if its counts

 

[8leveloquenfrn4evr8]

you can add me to the garbage heap of waste...wasted potential, wasted years, wasted life

 

[ClippedWings]

Wasted year? Try wasted life. A life is a terrible thing to waste. Imagine trading heaven for hell, that's me.

 

[F@#$]

Just one? I've wasted probably 30.
Just one? I've wasted probably 30.

 

[divinemistress36]

Been bed rotting for 7 years

 

[LostLily]

I've wasted my entire life tbh

Same

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Wasted it on a scumbag, but this is a new year now, so onwards and upwards.

No point dwelling on what ifs, that's how you get stuck in cycles in the first place and then it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy, and you'll never get out of that mindset, just around, around, and around constantly, and you'll get stuck deeper and deeper into it. Been there, unfortunately.

Been there myself, but I've helped myself to change my mindset, and after a long time, I have, and I'm in a better place now. It takes a lot of time, effort and hard work, but it can be done. I never thought I'd recover from all this horrific trauma, but I've done so well recently. Learn to help yourself, be there for yourself, to rely on yourself and no one else. Only you can be there for you 24/7, no one else.

Hope things ease for you