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takuyablackbox

takuyablackbox

[ should've been born a deer ]
Feb 19, 2025
18
as it stands now, i'm 5 months free from SH. but that was after one incident, where before that i was 10 months free. when i first started SH it was just in the regular places, such as my wrist and forearm. i'd cut, stab, burn myself with a torch or cigarette. but there started being unavoidable weird conversations with my friends who'd notice and eventually a point came where i genuinely wanted to quit, and was going on and off, stopping and relapsing. that 10 month period where i was free was where i started doing better, but then it's like i got hit with this overwhelming dread and loneliness. i would enter stages of hypomania, legit rolling on the floor and pulling my hair. during one of these episodes is when i took a razor and relapsed, not on my arm this time but on my face. i carved out a curved line about an inch under my left eye, trailing across my upper cheek, and remember the sheer relief i felt from it. i can't describe it, it literally felt like i had trapped spirits in my head that i'd let out once i made an opening. and over a month i would relapse over and over again, being careful to recut the same exact line on my cheek. it was thin eyelid-esque skin, so it was pretty sensitive and i'd involuntary tear up but it was very easy to draw blood as you didn't need much force between the thin skin and upper cheekbone. i was also fully in denial that it was SH because it felt entirely different from cutting my arm, but i told my friend about it one night and they told me i was SHing and i started coming back to my senses and eventually stopped. now there's a permanent scar that follows the curvature of my eye from the upper left corner of my nose to the upper left corner of my cheekbone. i have dark skin, so it's not too noticeable, but it's still definitely noticeable. it's obvious that it's a scar but it kinda looks like an eyebag line. and anytime a family member would ask what happened, i say i was laying down playing with my friends cat and it scratched me. terrible excuse ik lol but it works, and if they don't believe me they'll probably just assume i got in a fight. if a friend or stranger asks, though, i'm comfortable enough at this point to just casually tell them i was insane and cut my face open. does anyone else have SH history in unconventional places? and is it in a place where you get asked about it a lot?
 
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Average Joe

Average Joe

Forsaken One
Nov 5, 2019
405
I'm happy to hear you're 5 months free of sh!
For me, I have scars on my neck, and the little scars from the stitches/sutures. I've not got much of an excuse for that. I do have a beard and walk with my head down so most people don't notice, but if I had a conversation it wouldn't take long to notice. I used to work in a nursing home and the residents would always ask, I'd always say "oh I slipped in gravel" or "that damn cat again" but normally people don't tend to ask, thank God.
Started bloodletting but that didn't last otherwise i'd be dead, so I'm back to cutting my forearms.
 
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SomewhatLoved

SomewhatLoved

all bleeding stops eventually...
Apr 12, 2023
374
I cut myself on my upper thigh because it will never be visible. I don't have a partner so nobody sees that area of me. I think that's a pretty typical area though.

In the past I also cut myself on my lower abdomen.

When I was a teenager, like 15 or something, I tried to cut a mole off of the back of my neck with a razorblade. Obviously an awkward spot you can't really see in the mirror, so it was messy. I tried to cover it with my hair but my mom still noticed. I remember at first she was like "what did you do??" and I just tried to make it clear I didn't want to talk about it but she was still clearly concerned. I'm surprised she dropped it at that. Not really sure if this is self-harm. Maybe more like "self mutilation", but even "normal" people get moles removed for aesthetic reasons so idk. To do it yourself with a razorblade is obviously probably not normal though.
 
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metothemoon

Student
Feb 11, 2024
114
I usually SH in the "typical" places: arms, thighs. Sometimes my feet… Now and then I get the urge to cut/burn my face. But I can't imagine the weird reactions to that, so I try to keep it down 😅 But somehow I really want to try.. (Did cut my neck though few years ago, but that was okay to cover up)
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,894
I usually SH around my legs (I usually myself there or cut behind my knees), wrists, and arms, and I used to bite the back of my hands. However, a few days ago I gave myself some cat scratches along my lower tummy, just above my mons pubis so that I hide them more easily. I don't know whether or not cutting near your mons pubis is unconventional or not, but most cases of SH I hear about usually involve people SHing their legs, arms, wrists, or chest.
 
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lonergirl_26

Member
Sep 1, 2024
91
I usually do my legs, both calf and thigh. Also my right arm. I have cut in other places like my ass and tits (and chest) I also have 3 scares on my cheek luckily they are white and I can't cover them with makeup. The main problem is I feel like I have to be fully covered at all times so people can't see my scars.
 
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ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
858
After I got sick of people asking or acting worried, I switched from underside of my forearms, to my upper things, sometimes upper arm, and occasionally down by ankles. I know it's not really any better, but I feel like "out sight, outta mind". Actually I was doing pretty good until yesterday. Trying to find other ways to cope.
 
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Manic Panic

Manic Panic

Deaths Embrace
Jan 5, 2025
709
I have many sh on my arms but I have scars all over . I prefer my arms because I hope to hit veins ... plus the scars look so beautiful in the right light
 
gooblet

gooblet

hi
Apr 13, 2025
46
i SH on the bottom of my feet. I love the pain every step i take.
 

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