dying_kwik2000
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- Nov 1, 2025
- 70
I feel like I can't get stuff down and work on myself because I've told myself I'm going to die just before the end of the year. Anyone else?
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this is a good post. i think a lot of people outside of this site don't understand how suicidal ideation actually saps your will to do anything. i don't want to get up most days. or eat food. it's all boring and tiring and i wish that i didn't have to be alive to maintain my health. being young makes me feel like i'm never going to die because my body will bounce back from all the times i neglect it. i would rather lay in bed and fall in and out of consciousness for most of the day than actually try to feel good because at least i understand what the baseline feels like. i'm almost afraid of feeling other emotions, because i feel anxious about when something will make me sad again.I feel like I can't get stuff down and work on myself because I've told myself I'm going to die just before the end of the year.
same here. Basic hygiene is just too much.been doing nothing but rotting for years. can't even do basic hygiene anymore…