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valleyofthedolls

Member
Oct 17, 2022
46
Sometimes I seriously think about going to the countries listed in the PPH to go on a scavenger hunt for N because it sounds like the best way to catch the bus
 
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orbwithinorb

Student
Aug 4, 2024
197
Yes I have considered it in the past and had some leads to pursue. I really don't want to travel all the way there only to not find it and have to go home empty handed and more depressed. I'm not sure they'd ever sell to a foreigner that doesn't speak Spanish. Now I'm looking into more accessible methods, currently researching Nitazenes
 
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Zerengin96

Experienced
Jun 14, 2022
227
yeah but as a foreigner you will probably just get scammed
 
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Hangman.

Hangman.

Experienced
May 22, 2025
208
I rather move to Arizona and buy a gun easily.
 
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eternalpace

Student
Oct 18, 2025
198
Thankfully, in my current state, buying a gun is relatively easy. That wasn't the case ten years ago when I tried hanging myself.

I would be concerned about traveling to another country and being scammed, mistreated, etc.
 
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wyo777

When life is a nightmare...
May 18, 2024
306
If anyone will decide to go to Peru, i can give a lot of tips as i have been there.
 
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socksnsandles

Experienced
Oct 7, 2025
243
i briefly considered it but not sure how i would bring the N back with me to the states, and i dont want to die in south america
 
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Michelstaedter

Specialist
Feb 25, 2025
324
It sounds crazy, but if someone wanted to go to Peru, I could act as a translator and see if we could get N and die together.

However, it would be a medium-term project. I'd have to find a job to finance the trip and improve my English to translate more accurately.
 
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orbwithinorb

Student
Aug 4, 2024
197
It sounds crazy, but if someone wanted to go to Peru, I could act as a translator and see if we could get N and die together.

However, it would be a medium-term project. I'd have to find a job to finance the trip and improve my English to translate more accurately.
Where are you located? It would also be medium/long term thing for me as I'd need to save money.
 
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MediumRareChicken

Member
Oct 28, 2025
36
Other than Mexico and Peru, are there any other places to consider? Is it better to go to a large urban center or to be more off-the-grid, so to speak?
 
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HopeToStay

Member
May 31, 2024
95
Yes that was my plan, but unfortunately i haven't been able to afford it and there's something about saving up only to die which is uninspiring so i have just been stumbling along in life.

Hi, i have bought it but panicked before my flight back and waste it.

Yes

Some talk of Bolivia but i've not heard anything confirmed.
 
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sushestvanie

Member
Nov 22, 2023
15
It sounds crazy, but if someone wanted to go to Peru, I could act as a translator and see if we could get N and die together.

However, it would be a medium-term project. I'd have to find a job to finance the trip and improve my English to translate more accurately.
I would definitely be interested in going. Could you DM me?
 
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Green_leaf

Member
Nov 5, 2022
87
I rather move to Arizona and buy a gun easily.
You might find this link useful:

 
deadmanwalking1990

deadmanwalking1990

Student
Nov 16, 2025
129
I did but its too risky IMO,if i knew a reliable source i would go right now
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,458
Don't forget you have to make it back across the border. That may be the biggest problem.
 

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