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DeathSaves

DeathSaves

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Apr 19, 2019
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Depression is my life, i'm comfortable with being depressed, although i'm currently considering killing myself since i've been arrested in a private jail, or rehab clinic.

I've never felt like being too happy, and even if i do feel happy, i guess i'd rather go back to being sad. Does anybody understand what this feels like?
 
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WOODESITY

WOODESITY

Experienced
Mar 15, 2019
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This might sound weird but I wished many times to be sad/depressed otherwise i feel guilty. I honestly don't want happiness, I want courage to ctb.. there were times when I felt happy or normal I guess and I wished I wasn't
 
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aspx

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Mar 25, 2019
73
I understand you and I also feel like the same. I kinda like feeling sad because of the inner peace and because of the kindness that is related to it.
Maybe we've evolved to like this feeling, which a lot of people isn't comfortable with.

considering killing myself since i've been arrested in a private jail, or rehab clinic
Sorry to hear that. Isn't there a way to get out of there? Being forced to be in a rehab clinic doesn't seem to make any sense.
 
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