Venting Hanging attempts and practice until i finally ctb

[Blueberry Panic]

I feel like everyone I've known who have had hanging as how they ctb... practiced or had multiple attempts before finally succeeding.
Same goes for me attempts this point... I feel like eventually I'll get it right and I'll finally find the peace I don't deserve.

 

[kuroshimi]

Hanging is probably most accessible and somewhat simple and clean method. That's why this method is chosen most often.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Hanging is probably most accessible and somewhat simple and clean method. That's why this method is chosen most often.

Agreed

 

[hopelessgirl]

Hanging is probably most accessible and somewhat simple and clean method. That's why this method is chosen most often.

Yes. I even have sn and I still prefer going with hanging

 

[InTheAbyss]

Yes. I even have sn and I still prefer going with hanging

Same with me too.

 

[Worndown]

Practice. Then you are ready when that day arrives.

 

[RoadtoFreedomTwo]

Practice. Then you are ready when that day arrives.

I didn't think practicing was necessary… totally wrong. Physically the rope and anchor points have been fine, but the mental battle is tough. I keep making excuses or doing "one more thing" instead.

I got super close the other day and felt so happy and peaceful, but haven't been able to get close since. Definitely practice hanging

 

[gunmetalblue11]

Oh I do this often. My noose is knotted and ready to go. I often simply sit in a chair and have it around my neck from the temporary anchor point (handle otherside of the closed door), flush against my neck but not tightened enough to be dangerous, and sit like that for a while. Anything and everything to minimise SI for when the time comes.

 

[Worndown]

Practice lets you refine the setup.

It also lets you get comfortable with the feel and used to getting ready to do it.

When that day arrives, you are not dealing with putting a noose around your neck and touching your skin. Not dealing with standing on a chair like this.

You have done it many times. You can focus on doing it without additional distractions.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Practice lets you refine the setup.

It also lets you get comfortable with the feel and used to getting ready to do it.

When that day arrives, you are not dealing with putting a noose around your neck and touching your skin. Not dealing with standing on a chair like this.

You have done it many times. You can focus on doing it without additional distractions.

Do you think it could be a problem if I never did those tests before my attempt? I can't test on the set up because I don't live alone. On my suicide day I will be alone

 

[RoadtoFreedomTwo]

Do you think it could be a problem if I never did those tests before my attempt? I can't test on the set up because I don't live alone. On my suicide day I will be alone

Not necessarily, don't let our experience go to your head. But practice makes perfect, and who wouldn't want a perfect/mistake-free CTB?

Practice if you can, don't stress if you can't. Good luck & peace.

 

[taker_of_insulin]

Yes. I even have sn and I still prefer going with hanging

I think I'd prefer hanging over SN too, but I can't figure out why. It just seems less scary for some reason. Maybe it's because it's easily abortible and SN isn't. I imagine a lot of people begin to panic right after they ingest SN. Idk. What are your thoughts?

 

[hopelessgirl]

I think I'd prefer hanging over SN too, but I can't figure out why. It just seems less scary for some reason. Maybe it's because it's easily abortible and SN isn't. I imagine a lot of people begin to panic right after they ingest SN. Idk. What are your thoughts?

For me it's just that I prefer brief pain over the nausea. Don't know if that is logic though. I just don't want nausea when I die. I guess I just hate feeling sick. I don't mind puking though since I am bulimic. But I just hate the panicky, disphoric feeling of being nauseaous

 

[Blueberry Panic]

For me it's just that I prefer brief pain over the nausea. Don't know if that is logic though. I just don't want nausea when I die. I guess I just hate feeling sick. I don't mind puking though since I am bulimic. But I just hate the panicky, disphoric feeling of being nauseaous

Gods I've felt this so much and you are completely understood in not wanting it ... it's absolutely horrible and the fear sticks with you for a long time.

 

[metfan647]

I see the idea of practice as a bit redundant. When someone is really intent on going, they're going regardless of any sort of pain the rope causes. I'm not diminishing the pain, I've messed around myself and misplaced the rope and I couldn't swallow without pain for a few days. It's not pleasant.

I always imagine that I'll only be ready when I have truly reached the end of my mental tether. I imagine the fictious scenario of me HAVING to end my life to evade a grave situation. For example, you have committed a crime and have been found out by the authorities and your arrest would eventually result in a life sentence. Or a group of violent cannibals are outside your house in a dystopian universe and you have to die before they subject you to a far slower and tortuous death. We need to be in a really fucking low place before we flick that switch which maybe accounts for, perhaps, a small percentage of active users of this forum. As for the rest of us, we're just not there yet.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I see the idea of practice as a bit redundant. When someone is really intent on going, they're going regardless of any sort of pain the rope causes. I'm not diminishing the pain, I've messed around myself and misplaced the rope and I couldn't swallow without pain for a few days. It's not pleasant.

I always imagine that I'll only be ready when I have truly reached the end of my mental tether. I imagine the fictious scenario of me HAVING to end my life to evade a grave situation. For example, you have committed a crime and have been found out by the authorities and your arrest would eventually result in a life sentence. Or a group of violent cannibals are outside your house in a dystopian universe and you have to die before they subject you to a far slower and tortuous death. We need to be in a really fucking low place before we flick that switch which maybe accounts for, perhaps, a small percentage of active users of this forum. As for the rest of us, we're just not there yet.

It probably takes extreme mental anguish to finally do it, which sucks. Of course I'd rather be calm and at peace when I go but I just don't see how that's gonna work with hanging. What I wouldn't give for a painless poison.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

I see the idea of practice as a bit redundant. When someone is really intent on going, they're going regardless of any sort of pain the rope causes. I'm not diminishing the pain, I've messed around myself and misplaced the rope and I couldn't swallow without pain for a few days. It's not pleasant.

I always imagine that I'll only be ready when I have truly reached the end of my mental tether. I imagine the fictious scenario of me HAVING to end my life to evade a grave situation. For example, you have committed a crime and have been found out by the authorities and your arrest would eventually result in a life sentence. Or a group of violent cannibals are outside your house in a dystopian universe and you have to die before they subject you to a far slower and tortuous death. We need to be in a really fucking low place before we flick that switch which maybe accounts for, perhaps, a small percentage of active users of this forum. As for the rest of us, we're just not there yet.

Thats a interesting way to do it

 

[Worndown]

Some just grab a rope or belt or whatever is handy and do it. No second thoughts. Done.
Most do not. That is why this thread exists. When spontanaity fails, strategy takes over.

 

[Terrible_Life]

Not necessarily, don't let our experience go to your head. But practice makes perfect, and who wouldn't want a perfect/mistake-free CTB?

Practice if you can, don't stress if you can't. Good luck & peace.

Thanks I also wish you good luck and peace:)
When it comes to having lots of reasons on why to ctb i have many of them my biggest concern is that I might get a panic attack on my suicide day while staying on the ladder and then i have to cancel everything. So far I didn't attempt my goal is one attempt which will kill me so thought a lot about my life and realized here is nothing left for me and somehow whenever i wake up i feel thr most ready to die

 

[RoadtoFreedomTwo]

Oh I do this often. My noose is knotted and ready to go. I often simply sit in a chair and have it around my neck from the temporary anchor point (handle otherside of the closed door), flush against my neck but not tightened enough to be dangerous, and sit like that for a while. Anything and everything to minimise SI for when the time comes.

So when are you going to CTB?

 

[gunmetalblue11]

So when are you going to CTB?

Mid 2026 when is estimated by my vet that my cat will pass from her cancer. Promised her I'd stay with her until the end.