Habe you ever felt like REALLY happy

[FoxSauce]

People with bpd have yeah is common to feel empty , sadness and anger on an extreme scale but have you ever felt really happy. Idk I havent heard about people being happy happy unless is in a manic state in bipolar.

If this sounds offensive in any way is not intended to be so.

Like for example Inwas talking to my coworker about the fnaf movie and judt got like excited and really happy , wored I guess. Mind going at 70 miles per hours and rapid breathing and rapid movements while working. To the point my coworker asked me if I was ok. Lasted for like maybe an hour or so Is not the first time this happens and talked about it with my dbt doctor but curious if anyone felt this way.

 

[NutOrat]

I get both the fanatical, restless type of happiness, and sometimes just very short, fleeting moments of (I think) genuine happiness, but not manic in any way I don't think. It's weird, I know I'm depressed, but I'm capable of having very happy moments, laugh out loud, feel deep satisfaction, but only rarely and temporarily. I'm very confused.

 

[Mothz]

I only ever feel "happy" when I am manic. Like, for example, I'll flip from feeling like i am on top of the world. Perfect and nothing is wrong with me, even feeling better than others mentally, although this happiness also feels empty in a way; then I will flip to feeling worthless in every way imaginable with seemingly no cause.

 

[FoxSauce]

I only ever feel "happy" when I am manic. Like, for example, I'll flip from feeling like i am on top of the world. Perfect and nothing is wrong with me, even feeling better than others mentally, although this happiness also feels empty in a way; then I will flip to feeling worthless in every way imaginable with seemingly no cause.

Im sorry to ask and thats ok if ya rather not specify but you have bpd or bipolar?

Ik is super personal but curious.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't have bpd (that I'm aware of,) but yes. Very, very occassionally, I have felt very happy. Once was having a meal with my God parents. College was going ok. It was a lovely, friendly restaurant. A lovely meal but most of all was this huge feeling of gratitude that they were in my life. That I loved them and, they loved me. The other few times were times spent with my Dad or best friend. Mostly, it's been via a feeling of love though. Which is kind of stupid seeing as I choose to isolate so much now.

 

[Proceed]

Yes. I've made my life as easy as possible.

 

[Pluto]

 

[thankyouforthis]

Every time I've fallen in love. And when various children in my family were born (not mine; I would never!).

I get both the fanatical, restless type of happiness, and sometimes just very short, fleeting moments of (I think) genuine happiness, but not manic in any way I don't think. It's weird, I know I'm depressed, but I'm capable of having very happy moments, laugh out loud, feel deep satisfaction, but only rarely and temporarily. I'm very confused.

I'm no expert, but I don't think being depressed means you're incapable of happiness. I think it's just rarer/harder to feel that way if you're depressed. The experience is possible, but less common, maybe, in your life.

 

[woofwag]

I guess so. It never lasts. But I also have BPD and get those extreme euphoria shifts from time to time. Not really anymore.

I think the last time I was really happy was when I was in the arms of the person I was deeply, painfully in love with. But even then, that kind of love was tearing me apart. I still love them. But not in the way where I would get that kind of euphoria out of holding them again. And honestly, I think that's for the best. It seems that even my euphoria is destructive towards me and other people

 

[Quantum_Marten0302]

I cant recall a time when i felt happy

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I can get excited about topics I'm interested in, talk really fast and feel like a ping pong ball in a blender... and then no one understands what I'm talking about and look at me like a weirdo... so I try to be quiet. But happy? Once when I was about 9 I remember noticing that I felt peaceful and calm, for a few minutes. Before that, as a very small child, I vaguely remember feeling happy and then every single time being smashed to pieces as a result. I really don't know what was going on, if it was brain chemistry or my parents or both. I associated happiness with shock and pain and so avoided it, until now I'm old and it's been burned out of me for a long time, and I'm ok with that. I have my wife to mock me and insult me, just in case.

 

[FoxSauce]

I can get excited about topics I'm interested in, talk really fast and feel like a ping pong ball in a blender... and then no one understands what I'm talking about and look at me like a weirdo... so I try to be quiet. But happy? Once when I was about 9 I remember noticing that I felt peaceful and calm, for a few minutes. Before that, as a very small child, I vaguely remember feeling happy and then every single time being smashed to pieces as a result. I really don't know what was going on, if it was brain chemistry or my parents or both. I associated happiness with shock and pain and so avoided it, until now I'm old and it's been burned out of me for a long time, and I'm ok with that. I have my wife to mock me and insult me, just in case.

Wait she insults you-?

 

[In4rope]

Last time i was happy was years ago. I can't even remember feeling.

 

[Gangrel]

i feel empty all the time, it's hard to feel happy, when i do feel happy i don't know how to recognize it

 

[Dark Moon]

I can't remember the last time I felt like that. It might be when I got the Halo 5 Xbox One console for my birthday a decade ago.

 

[Unlucky777]

Happiness is something that is fleeting for me. Sadness and despair are always there. The few moments of happiness are not worth living for IMO.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

I hardly ever feel happy. The only emotions that are common for me are sadness, emptiness and feeling numb.
Sometimes anger if mom ends up triggering me.

 

[FoxSauce]

I hardly ever feel happy. The only emotions that are common for me are sadness, emptiness and feeling numb.
Sometimes anger if mom ends up triggering me.

I feel ya dude maybe not entirely but tots on the mom thing

 

[vitbar]

On my way out of an episode of depression I get a few days where I am hypomanic. When not in a depressive episode I get plenty of moments of strong happiness. I'll notice the beauty around me and feel gratitude to be experiencing it, and part of it. It's a mild euphoria compared to the hypomania, or drug highs, but more than a background happiness. I got it at the few weddings I've been to. When socialising or at a festival it can happen. Good music can send me there too. Genuine human decency is another trigger, whether seeing it from others or myself.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

For me the only real feeling of happiness left is more a feeling of ecstasy in beauty and it always involves feeling detached from this world. So really, death is beauty and beauty is happiness. Death is happiness. I must embrace Death.