Jisatsu
黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
- Jan 5, 2025
- 2,014
When suicide enters your life, it introduces a truth most people spend their whole life avoiding: life is not guaranteed, and endurance has its limits. That knowledge doesn't turn people reckless. It makes them aware. Aware that life as much as death is guaranteed.
Once you've seen how much pain someone was carrying, once you've watched them reach a point where staying became impossible for them, the concept of an "edge" becomes real.
I've seen this in so many people, people I loved and having to lose them rips you apart ... no one will never understand until they face it themselves. And it never helps when you miss more people then you have around you ...
Grief does something subtle ,it doesn't tell you that you should die. It tells you that endings exist, even for people who once laughed and lived fully. It removes the illusion that everyone makes it through this life by default.
Facing grief can make survival feel less like a given and more like something that requires energy, support, and circumstances.
I crave the silence of my mind and the nothingness that comes with death. The suicide contagion takes hold in everyway possible and it doesn't matter how hard you fight it you will attempt to follow through to be with the ones who went before you. I'm just waiting for the day everything comes to a conclusion.
I've been on this forum for a year now as of today , can't say im proud I'm still hear because I'm not. I've seen so many users come and go ... waiting for the day that I'll be next .
... Happy One year Anniversary lol hopefully it will be the only one
Once you've seen how much pain someone was carrying, once you've watched them reach a point where staying became impossible for them, the concept of an "edge" becomes real.
I've seen this in so many people, people I loved and having to lose them rips you apart ... no one will never understand until they face it themselves. And it never helps when you miss more people then you have around you ...
Grief does something subtle ,it doesn't tell you that you should die. It tells you that endings exist, even for people who once laughed and lived fully. It removes the illusion that everyone makes it through this life by default.
Facing grief can make survival feel less like a given and more like something that requires energy, support, and circumstances.
I crave the silence of my mind and the nothingness that comes with death. The suicide contagion takes hold in everyway possible and it doesn't matter how hard you fight it you will attempt to follow through to be with the ones who went before you. I'm just waiting for the day everything comes to a conclusion.
I've been on this forum for a year now as of today , can't say im proud I'm still hear because I'm not. I've seen so many users come and go ... waiting for the day that I'll be next .
... Happy One year Anniversary lol hopefully it will be the only one
