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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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I hadn't been answering to my phone all month. I planned to end it this Thursday. Well my friend ambushed me tonight, if I lived alone I wouldn't have answered the door but my dad did, called me to come downstairs.

I made the mistake of admitting my plans to my friend when he asked what was up with me. He's a healthcare professional and essentially threatened to have me institutionalized if I didn't come with him. I obliged but I didn't expect him to tell it to his fiancee too that I barely know,this feels humiliating


Then some friends of mine are texting me about it after he told them,it feels humiliating, I feel like burying my head in sand out of shame. At this stage he will likely tell my family about it too, I should have kept my mouth shut. I know to keep my mouth shut next time.

I do appreciate his concern but he didn't have to tell the whole world about it. God damn. This humiliation definitely isn't helping me stay alive
 
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k1w1

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Feb 16, 2022
350
Im bloody sorry that you are experiencing this. What sort of 'health professional' is this twit? Discretion is essential in dealing with people going through a suicidal period. Im geussing he wont remain your friend long.
Ultimately it is all about people protecting themselves.
 
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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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Im bloody sorry that you are experiencing this. What sort of 'health professional' is this twit? Discretion is essential in dealing with people going through a suicidal period. Im geussing he wont remain your friend long.
Ultimately it is all about people protecting themselves.
He's a pharmacist, he's one of my closest friends but this is super humiliating. He didn't have to tell his fiancee.

He essentially forced me to spend the night at his place. Sure but don't tell your fiancee and the whole world. Now I just feel ashamed AF. I shouldn't have said anything,I regret doing so. I feel like he's gonna have me institutionalized tomorrow or something as he says he won't allow me to be by myself tomorrow and return home.

This taught me to lie about things. I'm a terrible liar but I'd prefer lying to this
 
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Dinnerwith6

Dinnerwith6

Silly me
Dec 11, 2025
21
People are so insensitive, it's annoying. They need to realise telling others about someone else's personal issues doesn't make the person feel any better, especially if it's without consent. It just feels like betrayal :(
 
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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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People are so insensitive, it's annoying. They need to realise telling others about someone else's personal issues doesn't make the person feel any better, especially if it's without consent. It just feels like betrayal :(
It's such a headache.
 
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k1w1

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Feb 16, 2022
350
Hmmm.....I distanced myself from my family for a couple months before a flight to pick up Nembutal some years back.
My folks got suspicious so my brother was despatched to wheedle out of me what was up;
And as many of you will know, sitting on a secret like this brings to mind that dear 1970's song where

'I can't keep it it in, I can't keep it in I've gotta to let it out !!!

Next day, the Bro, a social worker and the old fella are on the doorstep and I'm booked in for a gentle inquisition at the mental, which fortunately passed uneventfully as I told them that I had not been in my right mind of late, been very foolish, selfish, blah blah. Which BTW is the best way to handle this ok, just give them what they want to hear.
These days it is so much easier now that I have told the world that I am 'a member of right to die organisations' as it fits my belief system, and as such is seen as a rational choice.
 
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This taught me to lie about things. I'm a terrible liar but I'd prefer lying to this
There's also the "I don't want to talk" response, which can be repeated a few times... and generally ends a conversation. (Tho there were cases where I had to block ears / attempt to daydream for 30s)
 
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mimimisaki

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Dec 16, 2025
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I'm terribly sorry that you had to go through that. Logically speaking, I think your friend might have thought that by telling more of your friends you'd have more of a support network, but I find it pretty obvious how disrespectful this was. The subject is already so fucking difficult to open up about, so him seeing your trust and just deciding on his own to share that information is fucked up. Even if his intentions were good he still should have checked in with you about who should know about this (if anybody at all, afterall privacy is a right we all have).
 
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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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I'm terribly sorry that you had to go through that. Logically speaking, I think your friend might have thought that by telling more of your friends you'd have more of a support network, but I find it pretty obvious how disrespectful this was. The subject is already so fucking difficult to open up about, so him seeing your trust and just deciding on his own to share that information is fucked up. Even if his intentions were good he still should have checked in with you about who should know about this (if anybody at all, afterall privacy is a right we all have).
So I got hospitalized, as he told my family and they in turn brought me to the hospital. My family situation was already tense now it's much worse.
I regret admitting to things, now my situation is worse
 
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