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Morning Angel

Useless Broken Wings
Aug 8, 2018
618
Looks like it's finally time.

I'm currently outside of the forest that will be the last place I ever exist on this earth. Tomorrow morning, I'm packing up, getting in my car, and going into the woods, where I will be self-euthanizing. I've gone as far as I can go given my failing health and the enormous amount of loss, isolation, and pain that accompanied it. I have fully accepted defeat and need to now stop. I'll be taking N and if all goes well, will drift away peacefully under the moonlight.

I am having my last meal tonight since I'll need to be fasting tomorrow: a sushi dinner and some ice cream - it's always been my favorite and not bad for a last kick if you ask me. (I want a cold Japanese beer, too, but I know I'm not supposed to.) In the very slight chance I somehow survive this reliable method, I promise to report back.

Whether or not you choose to stay and renegotiate life's terms, or you choose to to end suffering, I do hope the best for you all. I didn't need too much advice on my method, but I enjoyed quite a lot of social support and practical advice on technical, non-ctb related matters. I can't thank you all enough for that.

Much love to you all ❤️
 
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Justanotherconsumer

Justanotherconsumer

Paragon
Jul 9, 2018
974
Peace and love to you.
 
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Maravillosa

Maravillosa

Господи помилуй — мир в Україні!
Sep 7, 2018
704
Good luck and Godspeed, @Morning Angel. Peace :halo:
 
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AndyCurious

AndyCurious

Warlock
Sep 13, 2018
707
Good luck, best wishes, and hope you get peace on your journey :happy: Hugs
 
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starcrossedfate

starcrossedfate

Passenger
Sep 24, 2018
240
Safest of travels, Morning Angel.
 
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Morning Angel

Useless Broken Wings
Aug 8, 2018
618
Feel free to ask any questions (but I generally don't give people tips on acquiring N, there are plenty of threads/resources on this). I'll be here today before I unplug.
 
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jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562
Goodbye Morning Angel. You are indeed an Angel, remember that :)

Hope to see you on the other side one day.
 
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ThisIsTheEnd

ThisIsTheEnd

Waste of oxygen
Aug 22, 2018
90
Looks like it's finally time.

I'm currently outside of the forest that will be the last place I ever exist on this earth. Tomorrow morning, I'm packing up, getting in my car, and going into the woods, where I will be self-euthanizing. I've gone as far as I can go given my failing health and the enormous amount of loss, isolation, and pain that accompanied it. I have fully accepted defeat and need to now stop. I'll be taking N and if all goes well, will drift away peacefully under the moonlight.

I am having my last meal tonight since I'll need to be fasting tomorrow: a sushi dinner and some ice cream - it's always been my favorite and not bad for a last kick if you ask me. (I want a cold Japanese beer, too, but I know I'm not supposed to with my method.) In the very slight chance I somehow survive this reliable method, I promise to report back.

Whether or not you choose to stay and renegotiate life's terms, or you choose to to end suffering, I do hope the best for you all. I didn't need too much advice on my method, but I enjoyed quite a lot of social support and practical advice on technical, non-ctb related matters. I can't thank you all enough for that.

Much love to you all ❤️
Good luck. Hope it works.
 
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onewayroad

onewayroad

“Dying is not a crime.” ― Jack Kevorkian
Oct 4, 2018
358
Goodbye and farewell.

The interactions I've had with you have been enjoyable and it makes me sad that you have to go, but I trust you have indeed gone as far as you can go and that you have made the right decision.

You will be missed by everyone on here and I'm sure a lot of others too.

If you do go through with your method I hope you go peacefully and painlessly.
 
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Pastdue

Pastdue

Member
Oct 9, 2018
29
See you on the other side.

If you manage to find the perp responsible for this shithole give him a good kick up the arse for me.
 
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Candour

Candour

Student
Sep 16, 2018
113
Good luck x
 
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BlackDragonof1989

BlackDragonof1989

Mage
Jul 12, 2018
526
I'm gonna miss you, and I never even knew you, peace and love and rest to you...
 
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deathoverlife

deathoverlife

life is fleeting.....
Oct 8, 2018
197
Looks like it's finally time.

I'm currently outside of the forest that will be the last place I ever exist on this earth. Tomorrow morning, I'm packing up, getting in my car, and going into the woods, where I will be self-euthanizing. I've gone as far as I can go given my failing health and the enormous amount of loss, isolation, and pain that accompanied it. I have fully accepted defeat and need to now stop. I'll be taking N and if all goes well, will drift away peacefully under the moonlight.

I am having my last meal tonight since I'll need to be fasting tomorrow: a sushi dinner and some ice cream - it's always been my favorite and not bad for a last kick if you ask me. (I want a cold Japanese beer, too, but I know I'm not supposed to.) In the very slight chance I somehow survive this reliable method, I promise to report back.

Whether or not you choose to stay and renegotiate life's terms, or you choose to to end suffering, I do hope the best for you all. I didn't need too much advice on my method, but I enjoyed quite a lot of social support and practical advice on technical, non-ctb related matters. I can't thank you all enough for that.

Much love to you all ❤️
love and peace to you..good luck
 
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NOISYMIND

NOISYMIND

Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
Sep 11, 2018
163
Thank you for the short chat in the PMs. I hope your pain will finally come to a peaceful end. Good luck :)
 
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Nofaith

...
Sep 16, 2018
344
I know we only just started talking. I wish I had met you sooner. You really will be missed around here.

Be at peace ♡
 
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ctoan

ctoan

Arcanist
Sep 30, 2018
437
i hope it it will be a clear night so you will be able to see the stars
 
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tammyot

Member
Aug 1, 2018
73
Peace and love to you Angel, good luck
 
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Anyara

Anyara

Nothing is true, everything is permitted
Sep 6, 2018
125
Good luck and safe travels to you.. I hope you find your peace
 
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DeathBecomesMe

DeathBecomesMe

Student
Sep 9, 2018
142
Everyone on this forum is fortunate to have had you here, it seems you are a real angel.

You'll be in my thoughts. Peace, good luck and goodbye Morning Angel <3
 
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MachineGunDani

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
335
:'(I'm gonna miss you. Thank u for chatting in the shout box and for ur concern. Ur such a sweet person and I wish u the best!
 
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lost illusions

lost illusions

bye
Sep 12, 2018
548
Have Peace my friend
 
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mattwitt

mattwitt

# 978
Jun 28, 2018
2,309
Farewell Morning Angel !!!

th


You will be missed !!!
 
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
Good luck!
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
Good luck, Morning Angel. I'm sure you'll succeed and pass away peacefully. You'll be missed around here.
 
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blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
260
I love sushi <3 good luck to you! I hope that you'll find peace soon. Wishing you well :)
 
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Nanimoaru

Nanimoaru

I wanna fade away like I never was
Sep 15, 2018
153
Looks like it's finally time.

I'm currently outside of the forest that will be the last place I ever exist on this earth. Tomorrow morning, I'm packing up, getting in my car, and going into the woods, where I will be self-euthanizing. I've gone as far as I can go given my failing health and the enormous amount of loss, isolation, and pain that accompanied it. I have fully accepted defeat and need to now stop. I'll be taking N and if all goes well, will drift away peacefully under the moonlight.

I am having my last meal tonight since I'll need to be fasting tomorrow: a sushi dinner and some ice cream - it's always been my favorite and not bad for a last kick if you ask me. (I want a cold Japanese beer, too, but I know I'm not supposed to.) In the very slight chance I somehow survive this reliable method, I promise to report back.

Whether or not you choose to stay and renegotiate life's terms, or you choose to to end suffering, I do hope the best for you all. I didn't need too much advice on my method, but I enjoyed quite a lot of social support and practical advice on technical, non-ctb related matters. I can't thank you all enough for that.

Much love to you all ❤️
Go in peace and may you have a smooth transition to the next life
 
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lostinthedream

Warlock
Sep 2, 2018
753
All the best in your journey... infinite love, peace and wisdom always... <3 *touches your cheek softly
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Peace Angel, we've enjoyed your presence!
Best of luck with your decision.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
Much love to you xx
 
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SamK

SamK

Cloud Surfing
Aug 21, 2018
280
I love you so much MorningAngel. I thought i'd have a lot to say but actually .. I don't. I'm happy and heartbroken for you all at once. Bye my beautiful friend... thank you for every moment . message, reminder, hug,
You are a special person. You've had such a huge impact on my life and once you've gone I'm well. Going to be lost,
Out of respect i'm going to leave the site as you do. I don't think I could come back here afterward (don't feel bad, its just a normal reaction I suppose) but yeah, it wont be the same on this site without you. Love you, always will *kisses you on the cheek* good night and fly high. Much love always
Be at peace , i'll think of you every step of the way and every second from here. . <3 xxx join you very very soon.
Always.
Namaste my friend
 
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