Venting Good things make me feel worse

[iveseenfootage]

Anytime something good happens in my life, I feel so numb to it, and eventually I feel worse. Literally nothing makes me happy anymore, it's so depressing to think about how normal people would react to my situation, and contrast it with my lack of anything. Nothing seems to work, medication, therapy, etc. It all brings me back to numbness. Idk if this makes sense, just ranting lol, but does anyone get what I mean and experiences a similar thing? I'm just so tired and sick all the fucking time, everything normal I try to do never helps.

 

[Sleeper System]

When "good" things happen I don't see them as good things. I see them as a timer being started that ends with returning to being depressed. I guess that's what depression does. I dont allow myself to be excited because i know how i process it. Worse when the good thing happens around others. Then I have to pretend to be happy so they dont try to ask me questions i dont want them to have the answers to.

 

[HNR17114168]

When "good" things happen I don't see them as good things. I see them as a timer being started that ends with returning to being depressed. I guess that's what depression does. I dont allow myself to be excited because i know how i process it. Worse when the good thing happens around others. Then I have to pretend to be happy so they dont try to ask me questions i dont want them to have the answers to.

That's a good way to put it about the timer.