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ChaseBees

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Sep 30, 2021
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Hi! It's me again, the girl who wants SN but has a debit card that won't function. Not to mention the life altering anxiety (and Tourettes) that make it hard to navigate public.
Today I did something! I went to the bank. I've gone almost 2 months now without my debit card because I've been too scared to call my bank (nonetheless GO there). Today I determined that I can withdraw cash even if my card doesn't work, but it does have to be in person.
So I did it.
I managed to get cash out of my account (though the teller definitely thought I was on drugs due to my tics).
Even better news? I'll have a new card in 10 days. I can order SN.
Bittersweet I guess.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
Hi! It's me again, the girl who wants SN but has a debit card that won't function. Not to mention the life altering anxiety (and Tourettes) that make it hard to navigate public.
Today I did something! I went to the bank. I've gone almost 2 months now without my debit card because I've been too scared to call my bank (nonetheless GO there). Today I determined that I can withdraw cash even if my card doesn't work, but it does have to be in person.
So I did it.
I managed to get cash out of my account (though the teller definitely thought I was on drugs due to my tics).
Even better news? I'll have a new card in 10 days. I can order SN.
Bittersweet I guess.
It feels good to get things sorted. Due to mental conditions I can spend months where I rarely get out of bed. It's ironic that the one thing that galvanises me at present is anything connected with my plans to ctb. So yes. Bittersweet indeed.
 
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ChaseBees

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Sep 30, 2021
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It feels good to get things sorted. Due to mental conditions I can spend months where I rarely get out of bed. It's ironic that the one thing that galvanises me at present is anything connected with my plans to ctb. So yes. Bittersweet indeed.
It's interesting what our brains yearn for. I guess there truly is a drive to end it, and it surpasses everything else
 
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Versailles

Versailles

Enlightened
Oct 1, 2020
1,652
Oh good, I'm glad you are achieving the things you want, we deserve to leave this world in the way we want to choose, good luck and hugs!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,686
At least having the SN means you will have a way to exit this world at a time of your choosing. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 

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