Venting Going to go forward with it

[-knightly-]

Hi everyone, I never post much on forums or anything. I've been going through a lot lately. I was recently hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. I'm 23 [F], and have been fighting Bipolar disorder. I'm in a relationship with someone who loves me, but I can't give them the love that they want. I feel like I'm dragging them down with me. I just want to go so bad. I've had made plans before, so that isn't new for me. I decided to go with a firearm, drive away somewhere far. I also have a crush on a coworker of mine, and it's eating me alive. I feel disgusting. And I'm sure he thinks I'm nothing. I'm not sure what else to say, I just want to go. Those aren't the only reasons, life just feels so dark and mundane, I haven't felt joy in so long.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

Glad you found the strength to post this. You're in the right forum. I've lurked for months before making my account, yet I'm still reluctant to open up here. Whatever you choose, we hope you'll find peace with yourself.