Insomniac Butterfly
Sad
- Mar 24, 2025
- 10
I don't know what I'm supposed to even do.
I've completely given up on life.
I really do just stay in a bedroom every single day and cry. It's all I've done for 9 months now.
It hurts to be here.
it hurts to be a burden
it hurts to be in a human body with emotions and thoughts, and not be a person.
I don't want to be alive.
I can't handle this.
why can't the panic stop ever.
I hear even the animals mocking me.
I'm so terrified I'm going to be kicked out of my legal parents' house.
they've tried to kick me out a few times this year, and have been talking about me.
My only hope is lockpicking the gun safe. There's been a pit in my stomach for a while now. I'm dreading this. I'm scared for so many reasons. All I can do is wait for the tools too arrive in the mail.
I'm a psychotic mess to say the least.
I feel so much shame. Just let me hide until I die.
Why aren't my teary eyed prayers ever answered.
my only hope,
a bullet
I've completely given up on life.
I really do just stay in a bedroom every single day and cry. It's all I've done for 9 months now.
It hurts to be here.
it hurts to be a burden
it hurts to be in a human body with emotions and thoughts, and not be a person.
I don't want to be alive.
I can't handle this.
why can't the panic stop ever.
I hear even the animals mocking me.
I'm so terrified I'm going to be kicked out of my legal parents' house.
they've tried to kick me out a few times this year, and have been talking about me.
My only hope is lockpicking the gun safe. There's been a pit in my stomach for a while now. I'm dreading this. I'm scared for so many reasons. All I can do is wait for the tools too arrive in the mail.
I'm a psychotic mess to say the least.
I feel so much shame. Just let me hide until I die.
Why aren't my teary eyed prayers ever answered.
my only hope,
a bullet
