Getting ready to CTB tonight...

[zan]

After years of trying to push past this shit, I've finally come to (what I hope will be) the conclusion. At this point I don't know if me ending my life tonight will be me losing my fight or finally winning it, but oh well.

I really do want to talk with the people I love before I go, as I can't stand the quiet and numb loneliness descending in my head, but I don't think I can risk triggering any of their suspicions and being interrupted. I don't know if I should leave some sort of digital or handwritten suicide note as well. Guess I'll make a decision on that in the next few hours.

I know I haven't ever posted much here, but I was wondering if it would be possible to talk to some others who may be feeling somewhat similar as I am before I go, just to quell these achy, shitty feelings before I can finally (hopefully) stop burdening others.

 

[ChocoholicSawako]

im sorry life became so hard for you and brought you to this point.
ive been trying for years too, but probably i havent lost all hope yet.
im here if you need any talk or chat ^^ feel free to pm
hope it gets better, at least when you are still with us!

 

[zan]

im sorry life became so hard for you and brought you to this point.
ive been trying for years too, but probably i havent lost all hope yet.
im here if you need any talk or chat ^^ feel free to pm
hope it gets better, at least when you are still with us!

Thank you, and I'm sorry for you too, though I'm glad for you in that you haven't lost hope.

I hope it gets better for you as well, though for me personally, I'm just hoping I finally have the courage to kick the bucket and that I get a peaceful way out, even though I probably don't really deserve it.

Thanks again. :)

 

[Lookoutbelow]

I'll be here if you want to chat. While each of our reasons are different, we all share a common bond.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I just want you to know that we are the sane ones. Anyone who thinks that this slimy, scammy, disgusting, maggot-ridden planet is worth existing on are the crazy ones.

 

[RenaSrar]

I'm here too. I work nights so I'll be up all night until 6am.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry that life brought you to this point. I hope you find peace & freedom. Safe travels and good luck!
My PM is open should you wanna chat.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I wish you luck in whatever you decide to do, and hope you find the peace you deserve.
Yet I'm here if you need someone to chat with.

 

[CloudyNightSky]

It doesn't really matter if you wrote 3 or 300 posts but just look at all of these comments. We all love you and are there for you if you need to talk. And ofc I'm also there for you as everyone else here. Obviously you can't write with all of us but just know that we are with you and love you. I hope everything works out for you <33

 

[Some place nice]

I'm sorry you feel like that. I wish I could take your pain away. Goodbye and have a peaceful end.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck with your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.