Venting Getting better but at the same time wanting to die

[Manic Panic]

The antidepressants are doing their job, I feel numb most of the time but everyday I want to get worse again. I feel the urge to fall to rock-bottom again just because I can .

Ruin everything and take my sn , make everyone hate me and just disappear.

 

[Death Diviner]

Bruh, I often feel the same. To fall into the depths of despair, to make those who love you hate you so you feel no burden, no guilt in unmaking yourself. Go on knowing that no one will be hurt by you offing yourself, I feel this way. Oh, what a shame to be alive, what a shame to die, what a shame to Be.

 

[CravingPeace]

I feel the exact same way. I low key want something tragic to happen so that I have a "legit" reason to exit.