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disgusting-life

disgusting-life

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A car could veer of course and hit me, i might get lucky and die

This ceiling could just drop on my head and i might get lucky and die

This food could be secretly poisonous and i could get lucky and die

Some dude could just come shoot me and i might get lucky and die

I might have some deadly unknown disease and i may get lucky and die

I just wanna get lucky and die

i need to die and get this over with already
 
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tonicer

tonicer

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Nov 13, 2025
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I just want to go to bed and not wake up. I don't want luck to get involved. I never had luck even once in my life. With my luck (or lack thereof) i would end up in a hospital bed for the rest of my life.
 
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Chocomel

Chocomel

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Jan 13, 2024
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i would end up in a hospital bed for the rest of my life.
I feel you, even if some unfortunate things happen to me, it would likely makes me more miserable than I already am, knowing how this life works. Like sure I imagine the concerete block of my second floor just falling on top of me, but what I imagine next is not dying but being blind or even worse crippled for life. Passive suicidal on itself is nice, but again like OP said, "may get lucky" and if you're not lucky, good luck continuing life
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand, I just wish to be gone as well, all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous existence I just always saw as such a terrible mistake, all I envy are those who no longer suffer in this existence that I always saw as an abomination, for me ceasing to exist would solve everything, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the suffering and torture of existing.
 
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tonicer

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Nov 13, 2025
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I understand, I just wish to be gone as well, all I want is to be permanently free from this torturous existence I just always saw as such a terrible mistake, all I envy are those who no longer suffer in this existence that I always saw as an abomination, for me ceasing to exist would solve everything, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the suffering and torture of existing.
Same. I never understand why some people are bashing abortion. I WISH i was aborted. My entire life is nothing but a struggle. That i made it to 42 is a miracle.
 
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ceelobling

ceelobling

Student
Dec 29, 2025
125
Yeah, why am I always spared? I wish I could die from an accidental death like a building collapse or a speeding semi-truck. You always see news like that, but like choose me, I'm right here.
 
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