Venting fucking BULLSHIT

[ScaredCutter]

i hate this day, i have nothing to write, i keep rewriting what i wanna say but if i admit too much, im afraid of what may happen next. i finally opened up about smth and what happened after was completely bullshit, why cant somebody just be honest to me, why cant i be told the truth. i can see the change that happened, i can feel the tone changed, i can see the damn signs but once i point it out, but all thatll happen next from what i know is theyll be hidden from me again, ill be stuck relying on my own gut feeling and brain, ill be stuck making assumptions which make everything worse. why cant somebody just understand.

i told my teacher about stuff but she has to tell my mum about one thing because its her duty and, i cant argue with that but the second my dad knows, im fucked. im gonna be insulted at, made fun of and what not. i hate it when my dad gets ahold of information about me, im so closed off from family because anything i say is just fuel, its just something to hurt me with. i will never believe my dad changed.

 

[L.D.50]

i had something really similar happen to me when i was younger as well
went to my school counselor regarding issues at home, and accidentally got cps sent our house. needless to say this enraged my parents and only made things worse.
i don't know what your situation is like, but my father would also insult and make fun of me more than often. he was an asshole.
i can probably guarantee you, whatever shit your family and peers are saying about you are projecting their own anxiety and shame onto you. that doesn't define your achievements or who you are as a person.
i know i can't change your situation, and my advice isn't anything exceptional but i sincerely hope that you'll have better days ahead. family sucks.