• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

Lara Francis

Lara Francis

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,627
Hi.
I self harm by cutting and i understand the many resons people do this.
For me personally,it is a coping mechanism for transferring deep mental and emotional pain into physical pain as a distraction.
The frequency of my self harm has reduced but the desire is always in the background.
I told my friend that i had been testing partial hanging and she was concerned as you would expect.I said that i was missing my son and it was tearing me apart.she suggested all she could including exercise.I dont do exercise but thought i would give it a go and i feel much worse.! I dont feel as if i have much control over many things in my life right now and excessive exercise and depriving myself of food could help or maybe i am just giving up.
I think that i am unwell and the plaster keeping me together is coming off.i seem to replace one problem with other.All i want to do is sleep and wake up to a normal and happy life and its just not happening.
I guess the things i mention are other forms of self harm.
 
  • Aww..
  • Like
Reactions: lemmeeleev, Kikoo Loool and Donewith_
D

Donewith_

Elementalist
Sep 28, 2018
876
i'm sorry you are hurting because of missing your son and other difficult things.
its good to know you are doing it less.. a bit better. any small change is really good.
and yeah exercise and self-help books help some people.
i saw that self-help books helped some people to get through the rough patches in their lives..its what took them through it.
i couldn't be of much help, but i hope something could be of help to you and i hope things turn out in a way that you would oneday wake up to live the dreamlife that you are wanting to have.. hugs.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Circles, Lara Francis, lemmeeleev and 1 other person

Similar threads

BlueLock
Replies
9
Views
496
Suicide Discussion
bl33ding_heart
bl33ding_heart
cylus46
Replies
31
Views
1K
Suicide Discussion
Pluto
Pluto
SecretDissociation
Replies
2
Views
437
Recovery
SecretDissociation
SecretDissociation
TypicalTenntz
Replies
2
Views
232
Suicide Discussion
VargosMelon
V
albert_camus
Venting relapse
Replies
0
Views
171
Suicide Discussion
albert_camus
albert_camus