Discussion Finding closure for CTB

[usernamenoonecares]

I am planning to CTB this month. I hope this second attempt will be successful. I don't want to CTB in my room since it would cause my roommates troubles. So I will book a room in a nearby hotel for two nights. Here is my plan.

1. Don't eat or drink anything for 12 hours
2. Ibuprofen tablets - 600mg
- Wait for 20 mins
3. Metoclopramide tablets - 30mg
- Wait for 20 mins
4. Propranolol tablets - 400mg
5. Diphenhydramine tablets - 100mg
- Wait for 30 mins
7. Take the 25g of SN in capsules
8. Watch anime and chat with forum

I have decided to use 00 Enteric capsules instead of just water since it would give me some time to chill, chat here and watch some anime and listen some music.

I would plan ahead and leave messages to people I have been involved recently. Messages will be sent a few days after I am gone.
I hate ghosting people in general and I feel responsible to provide closure for me and for everyone as well.

Hope there is a chance for reincarnation. I really hate this life, OMG. My living condition is considerably good. However, I find my life purposeless and meaningless. The more I want to look for a purpose the more empty I felt, the more I grow apathy to everything. Now I just reach a conclusion that I really don't want to continue this life.
If I simply cease to be, so be it.

When I start this plan, I would create a new thread. I hope that I can contribute to the alternative way of taking SN.

If you are interested, you can explore capsules SN here. The rest of the plan are pretty much the same as standard procedure.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-almost-died.20817/
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye.196468/
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-method-of-taking-sn-without-vomiting.104747/
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-capsule-discussion.197282/#post-2902977

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Thank you for sharing this capsule method. I'm sorry that you have come to this point where you feel there is no meaning, may you find what you are looking for in reincarnation. All the best.

 

[usernamenoonecares]

I am still here. There is a change of plan so I give myself one year extension. I don't see the point though.

 

[carlbot]

I am still here. There is a change of plan so I give myself one year extension. I don't see the point though.

Any reason you decided not to go through with it in the timeframe you originally decided? (If you don't mind me asking, just curious)

 

[usernamenoonecares]

Any reason you decided not to go through with it in the timeframe you originally decided? (If you don't mind me asking, just curious)

There is a personal project I want to give a try

 

[carlbot]

There is a personal project I want to give a try

Fair enough, hope it all works out for you.