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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

้ป’ใ„่–”่–‡(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
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About half a cm from my jaw is where my carotid arteries are the easiest to hit . I tested it over and over in so many different positions and I finally fucking found it. About 10 seconds in and my arms started to shake like I was seizing and I felt like I was about to faint .
I haven't felt that feeling in a year and I'm so happy I tested myself until I finally found it !

Everything is set to go and I'm ready to finally ctb correctly!

Consider this my final ctb post . Thank you everyone for the help and recourses !
 
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Carryline

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Oct 11, 2025
183
I hope you will find peace... success
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
142
I tried full suspension hanging multiple times and couldn't find the spot for it to work I stayed 20 seconds and didn't faint ,the only thing I felt was pressure building up in my head , unfortunately hanging isn't for me
 
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Carryline

Student
Oct 11, 2025
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I tried full suspension hanging multiple times and couldn't find the spot for it to work I stayed 20 seconds and didn't faint ,the only thing I felt was pressure building up in my head , unfortunately hanging isn't for me
The same here ... hanging is the most populat method yet i just cannot do it no matter what...
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

้ป’ใ„่–”่–‡(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,014
I tried full suspension hanging multiple times and couldn't find the spot for it to work I stayed 20 seconds and didn't faint ,the only thing I felt was pressure building up in my head , unfortunately hanging isn't for me
The pressure is from you pressing on your airway not your arteries. You have to position it high up on your neck right under your jaw .... and either way if you did fsh you wouldn't have been able to save yourself... and of course you felt like your head was going to explode fsh does that with bad rope positioning.
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
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The pressure is from you pressing on your airway not your arteries. You have to position it high up on your neck right under your jaw .... and either way if you did fsh you wouldn't have been able to save yourself... and of course you felt like your head was going to explode fsh does that with bad rope positioning.
I was able to save myself because I didn't kick the chair far away from me and I was able to stand on it .
 
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Higurashi415

Higurashi415

i'll f*ck me in my own way
Aug 23, 2024
315
About half a cm from my jaw is where my carotid arteries are the easiest to hit . I tested it over and over in so many different positions and I finally fucking found it. About 10 seconds in and my arms started to shake like I was seizing and I felt like I was about to faint .
I haven't felt that feeling in a year and I'm so happy I tested myself until I finally found it !

Everything is set to go and I'm ready to finally ctb correctly!

Consider this my final ctb post . Thank you everyone for the help and recourses !
if this really is the last time, thank you for being here, it's been nice knowing you even vicariously through your posts, godspeed.
i respect your decision but i want you to know that if you dont want to go through with it we'll be here no matter what :heart:
 
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Crow_88

Crow_88

Specialist
Dec 30, 2024
371
Good luck. Hanging is so dangerous and painful.
 
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qewpie

qewpie

bedbound, bouncing, broken
Aug 3, 2025
160
may peace find you on light wings. thank you for having been here.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,012
I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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zdeweilx

zdeweilx

It's over
Dec 15, 2025
145
May you find peace and freedom
 
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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
237
Wishing you a peaceful journey. :heart:

Thank you for being here, it have been nice to know you.
 
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3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (๏ฝ€ใƒปฯ‰ใƒปยด)
Jan 22, 2025
220
It was genuinely nice to know you, even just through a screen. Thank you for being here and for being you, and for checking on me and for making me feel seen. You were a kind soul in a hard place, and I won't forget that. I hope your journey is gentle and painless. See you on the other side.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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Oh, you will miss you
Are you sure?
 
U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based Gigachad"
Aug 8, 2022
2,437
ugh, didn't notice this was you having changed your avatar. you have suffered so much and written some meaningful things here...i hope whatever you need to happen happens ๐Ÿ’”
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,413
I hope you found peace little Blueberry! ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ
 
INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
185
Wishing you peace. โ˜ฎ๏ธ
 

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