finally done

[emilyprentiss]

my girlfriend of one year ghosted me, I found out that she was cheating on me on my own she didn't tell me. she didn't say goodbye to me. i wasnt worth the energy. I was a filthy bitch that she used to buy her things and she gets to be with the person she really loves now. she wants me to die, im dead. I mean nothing to her and never did. this is the second person to cheat on me but I thought she was better. she was so much better than my ex, she didn't hurt me or tell me to end it or isolate me from my friends and she didn't do a lot of the things. but I was a stupid bitch and that was all I'll ever amount to i could never be anything more. not ever. shes happy now. I never made her happy no matter what I did. Shes happy now she could never be happy with me who could ever be happy with such a useless slut? she never wanted me. i wasnt worth talking to. im not worth existing i need to make it stop I need to find a way to make it stop I have to do it fast because I can't anymore I can't. I don't know what to do but I can't. I don't know how I will plan when I feel like this, i sound so much more simplistic than I usually do but my mind cannot reel itself back in. i want it to be peaceful and to go to sleep but I know i deserve to burn so maybe that's how it should be? I dont know. I want to be in agony.