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sillyprincessmeow

sillyprincessmeow

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Jul 21, 2022
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Im wondering if fentanyl would be better than SN and maybe easier? Im only 100lbs / 60 some kgs so i think an od would be easy. However from an outside view.. is that.. probable? Im planning to CTB this fall. I want to go missing and then od or consume sn. I just dont know how to get fent or how to emetics. Its way too difficult. Any advice would be nice, i know you cant tell me how or anything like that, but as much knowledge as i can get would be appreciated. Thank you.
 
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kitkat9234

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I wish I had access to some. You hear of people dying from fent OD's all the time. Seems painless/peaceful. Just go to sleep never wake up. I wish.
 
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sillyprincessmeow

sillyprincessmeow

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I wish I had access to some. You hear of people dying from fent OD's all the time. Seems painless/peaceful. Just go to sleep never wake up. I wish.
You hear of it being painless but i dont know.. i have to research more. I just wish it wasnt as hard. Everyday i have more courage to commit.
 
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wham311

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It's painless, per opiate heads who have oded
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

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Oct 12, 2020
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I dunno, according to the media you can survive a lethal dose.
 
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forgivemegod

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Jun 26, 2025
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I think we don't discuss it enough here
 
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tbh2023

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Nov 4, 2024
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I wish I had access to some. You hear of people dying from fent OD's all the time. Seems painless/peaceful. Just go to sleep never wake up. I wish.
A friend of mine died by F his mom video taped him because she thought she will show him the video when he's up (she wanted him to see how he acts when on drugs) she didn't think he was actually dying. The video was on face book but it was removed right away. He was just there with his mouth open and eyes rolling. In the morning they found out he's dead. People were talking about his mom as she never called the ambulance. She said he didn't look like he was in pain. She did call the police on him a million times before so he can stop using so she prob thought it's one of those times. Sad story for the mom.
 
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SomewhatLoved

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Apr 12, 2023
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Fentanyl is dangerous, it stops breathing and when your breathing stops eventually your heart will stop due to hypoxia, acidosis, so forth. The DEA states that the lethal dose is about 2mg. To put that into perspective, an example of a dosage that might be used for management of severe pain is around 100mcg, possibly being repeated for continued or cumulative effect. So lethal dose is about x20 the therapeutic dose. This sounds high, but honestly really isn't. Pharmaceuticals are formulated in a concentration intended for therapeutic use, but if you were to find pure, crystalline, powder fentanyl on the market somewhere, it really wouldn't be that much. See the picture below:

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The white powder is pure crystalline fentanyl (or at least represents it). Pharmaceutical fentanyl is generally supplied as a solution with a concentration of something like 100mcg (0.1mg)/2mL.

The bottom line is, if you take the lethal dose you will die. The issue that arises is that fentanyl on the market does not come in pure crystalline form. Drug manufacturing and sale would not be profitable if that is how it was sold, as everyone would be fucking dead. When you kill your customers you tend to go out of business.

So, it's very hard to find pure fentanyl. Pharmaceutically it is not supplied that way, and illicitly you would have to go wayyy up the supply chain for that. Of course you could use "street" fentanyl that has been cut with other shit like caffeine, benzodiazepines, mannitol, etc, however at that point it's hard to gauge the concentration and know how much is fatal. Where I live, drug testing organizations only disclose contents and not concentration. They will tell you if a tested drug is pos/neg for fentanyl, but not how much fentanyl is present in the substance by weight or volume.

Best advice would be that if you are going this route, take excess of what you think is needed. Obviously, overdosing is a complicated subject. Many people die of opioid overdose unintentionally, while others try to do it on purpose and fail. In my opinion, this topic should be thought of as a medical procedure as that's essentially what it is. You are giving a specific medication at a specific dose, via a specific route, for a specific purpose... This is no different than giving it for pain, except in this instance the therapeutic dose happens to also be the lethal dose. Just do your research, and consider all methods to decide what is best for you.

I think many people are drawn to fentanyl because it is a painkiller and people have this idea that it will just knock you out and you will have no memory of anything. This is true, but it makes it sound too easy. For it to reliably work, you have to put some thought into the procedure and I feel like (as a suicidal person) planning your own death is anything but relaxing. It's stressful, like any other major life decision.
if quickly reversed with naloxone and with medical treatment
Also... Important to make note of this. Some countries/states/municipalities are distributing naloxone kits. It is one of the safest medications that there is, and there are almost never side effects or adverse reactions at the therapeutic dose. Naloxone has become extremely common and I can guarantee that pretty much every ambulance, cop, and firefighter in the western world probably has it. You have to make sure you are not found or an attempt at resuscitation will be made.
 
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klantedklaw

klantedklaw

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Aug 8, 2025
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I'll be using heroin and SN when I ctb.

My thought process is that drinking SN will take about 1 hour max, while the effects of injecting heroin/ fent will be almost instant. That means you'll be relaxed and happy as the SN does its job. From what I've read heroin in contrast to fent is a lot more relaxing and euphoric, especially if you haven't used opiates before, so you should feel happy.

An advantage of using both opiates and SN is that its harder for medical professionals to save you, they will think you're just overdosing and might give you naloxone, but will likely overlook the SN.
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

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That's the major problem with the od method. Getting possession of potent enough drugs. Meanwhile deaths from recreational users stays high. Even being called an epidemic in some states.
 
klantedklaw

klantedklaw

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That's the major problem with the od method. Getting possession of potent enough drugs. Meanwhile deaths from recreational users stays high. Even being called an epidemic in some states.
its quite easy to find drugs, you don't even need to leave your computer (ᵔᴥᵔ)

and I guess you can compensate for any perceived low quality drugs by just increasing your intake to 5-10x the lethal limit
 
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Pale_Rider

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Ok. I have taken a lethal dose of opiate. It was painless. Emotional pain was present, but that's subjective. The way lethal overdoses are reversed is with a medication. Then you are revived. Other then that a lethal dose is always lethal
 
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klantedklaw

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Ok. I have taken a lethal dose of opiate. It was painless. Emotional pain was present, but that's subjective. The way lethal overdoses are reversed is with a medication. Then you are revived. Other then that a lethal dose is always lethal
can you tell me more about your experience?

did you feel scared/ nervous when you took it? what did it feel like? I've never used drugs so i wouldn't know.
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

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Apr 21, 2025
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its quite easy to find drugs, you don't even need to leave your computer (ᵔᴥᵔ)

and I guess you can compensate for any perceived low quality drugs by just increasing your intake to 5-10x the lethal limit
Very true. I've bought acid on the dark web before.
can you tell me more about your experience?

did you feel scared/ nervous when you took it? what did it feel like? I've never used drugs so i wouldn't know.
I have Dissociative identity disorder so I switched a lot during the process. We ran the full gambit of emotions. Cried, prayed. Was angry. Was pissed, but in the end switched to a peaceful state, and enjoyed the high as it got stronger, and stronger. I drank 345 mgs of methadone. I had planned it ahead of time if the clinic ever gave me a third bottle. [ 1 bottle was my daily dose. ] usually on a Saturday they would give me two. To get through Sunday. This Saturday they gave me three. I didn't calculate how long it would take to hit me correctly. It was very fast! I had planned to go hide in the Subway tunnel, but I couldn't get there in time. The high was coming real fast. I knew what to expect as I had ODed on heroin mutiple times before. So I went and laid down in a little park. They had been watching me, Because it was known that I was suicidal. So yes they found me, and revived me. That about covers it. My longest version yet.
Oh the bottles are drinkable liquid.
 
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tbh2023

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Nov 4, 2024
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Ten minutes
Opiates are easily attainable. I just don't have a mailbox to ship to.
I don't even know how to access the site to buy these things. I want to and I tried but it didn't work. It must be something I'm doing wrong.
 

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