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Kiryu6877

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Tried this shit thinking it would numb all the pain and I would just black out and die, but instead I couldnt breathe for shit, like I was drowning, scary stuff, had to get Narcan'd.
And I had the 100% pure stuff I got from the Hospital I work at, wasnt some shady shit bought by a shady dealer.

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I hope they didn't catch you!
 
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Tried this shit thinking it would numb all the pain and I would just black out and die, but instead I couldnt breathe for shit, like I was drowning, scary stuff, had to get Narcan'd.
And I had the 100% pure stuff I got from the Hospital I work at, wasnt some shady shit bought by a shady dealer.

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thanks for sharing this. i was really thinking fent or heroin could be an easier way to die and was thinking twice about using SN.

but it sounds like this was really not fun.

was this a high dose of fent? like if i were able to buy some and injected a huge amount, would i feel the same way? from what i heard, if you od on heroin you pass out almost immediately...

this is extremely helpful
 
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dalemar

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Hoes does the fent work, you gotta drink it, or inject it?
 
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That's what I've been telling people who wants to OD here... As someone who suffers from psych drug damage and chronic hypoxia as a result. It literally feels like drowning. That doesn't feel good but whatever šŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™€ļø

Fentanyl in particular has a very fast onset. It fires nerves rapidly and your neurotransmitters struggle to adapt the comedown. It can trigger severe dystonia, causing your muscles to become rigid. Your chest wall stiffen and gets stuck.
 
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Kiryu6877

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Hoes does the fent work, you gotta drink it, or inject it?
Injected. IM or IV.
I hope they didn't catch you!
They didnt, I still have my job.
thanks for sharing this. i was really thinking fent or heroin could be an easier way to die and was thinking twice about using SN.

but it sounds like this was really not fun.

was this a high dose of fent? like if i were able to buy some and injected a huge amount, would i feel the same way? from what i heard, if you od on heroin you pass out almost immediately...

this is extremely helpful
I've read people here saying Fent is way better than SN and that its painless. I mean, I guess IT IS PAINLESS, what they didnt tell me is that I wouldnt be able to fucking breathe. I injected 5ml, should've been more than enough to kill me.
 
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that means Nembutal is king

also next a shotgun or rifle or powerful hand gun to the middle of the head is instant lights out instant Death no pain. but it's very difficult to defeat fear and shoot yourself
 
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dalemar

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Injected. IM or IV.

They didnt, I still have my job.

I've read people here saying Fent is way better than SN and that its painless. I mean, I guess IT IS PAINLESS, what they didnt tell me is that I wouldnt be able to fucking breathe. I injected 5ml, should've been more than enough to kill me
Don't you have pentobarbital (N) at the hospital?
 
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Kiryu6877

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Oct 29, 2021
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that means Nembutal is king
Getting a shotgun is easier than putting hands on that thing
I mean, Im close to Peru though, maybe I could get it there?
Don't you have pentobarbital (N) at the hospital?
Nope. I dont think thats avaliable at any hospital, at least not where I live (Brazil). As far as I know only vet meds got them
 
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that means Nembutal is king

also next a shotgun or rifle or powerful hand gun to the middle of the head is instant lights out instant Death no pain. but it's very difficult to defeat fear and shoot yourself
What about high voltage of the power lines? Do you think it would cause rapid and certain death?
 
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Kiryu6877

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but it's very difficult to defeat fear and shoot yourself
I guess, but its just a trigger and instant blackout. Much harder to inject yourself with N and wait for the lights to go out.
 
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What about high voltage of the power lines? Do you think it would cause rapid and certain death?
idk could be painful. there are videos on watchpeopledie.tv of people using all these methods
 
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PsychWardSlayer

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Injected. IM or IV.

They didnt, I still have my job.

I've read people here saying Fent is way better than SN and that its painless. I mean, I guess IT IS PAINLESS, what they didnt tell me is that I wouldnt be able to fucking breathe. I injected 5ml, should've been more than enough to kill me.
250mcg of fentanyl isn't enough to kill you
 
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notreallybored

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ב''ה,

Wild story, but this is what I mean about the "something is wrong" feeling penetrating the opiate/opiate haze.

Never actually fiddled with this stuff so it's actually even more of a wild ride because there's no time to be nodding off before the reality of the excess (and respiratory depression) kicks in if OD?

Not that I would specifically recommend it or not but this as well as the regulatory environment is why hospice protocol is or at least used to be crazy amounts of benzos on top of and prior to ramping up the opiates to 'serum replacing' amounts, it's anesthesia plus hopefully more anesthesia, the cheapest and most medically excusable way.

Rather sorry to hear it's particularly dysphoric, while my assumption has been that if one is doing this with intent, the idea would be to get to a 'pleasant' scenario of dosage and then push it further in the same 'session' as apparently would not be pleasant all at once.. or if someone seeking release from existence can somehow get all the benzos or Ambien or whatnot and still manage to administer all this..

If you're making claims, nausea and itchiness as well or does the drowning kick in too fast to notice even that / fent is sufficiently different that way?
 
Unlucky777

Unlucky777

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Dec 10, 2025
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Wait how the hell did you get away with taking this stuff from your job and them not finding out? That in and of itself is crazy lol please explain.

Not sure how any of that works but I'm sure they would have very strict and tight controls around substances like that.
 
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carfemtanyl

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I injected 5ml, should've been more than enough to kill me.
From the picture you sent, this should be 250mcg. The usual IV dose that definitely kills you would be 2mg or 2000mcg so you "only" took 12.5% of what is guaranteed to kill an opioid-naive adult.
I've done fent before and from my experience, you pass out rather quickly even at sub-lethal doses.
 
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I've read people here saying Fent is way better than SN and that its painless. I mean, I guess IT IS PAINLESS, what they didnt tell me is that I wouldnt be able to fucking breathe. I injected 5ml, should've been more than enough to kill me.
it's so helpful to know this, because many people on here said first you inject, then you feel good, then you pass out, and then you stop breathing

but if it feels like you can't breath, that's awful, i would have used the narcan too

thanks for the info
From the picture you sent, this should be 250mcg. The usual IV dose that definitely kills you would be 2mg or 2000mcg so you "only" took 12.5% of what is guaranteed to kill an opioid-naive adult.
I've done fent before and from my experience, you pass out rather quickly even at sub-lethal doses.
interesting!

so you're saying the person did it wrong and that's why they didn't pass out immediately and felt like they couldn't breath? it's still scarier after reading their account of things
 
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Kiryu6877

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Oct 29, 2021
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Wait how the hell did you get away with taking this stuff from your job and them not finding out? That in and of itself is crazy lol please explain.

Not sure how any of that works but I'm sure they would have very strict and tight controls around substances like that.
Its a public hospital in Brazil. Things are kind of a mess around here, I could easily steal another fent ampoule and not be noticed.
From the picture you sent, this should be 250mcg. The usual IV dose that definitely kills you would be 2mg or 2000mcg so you "only" took 12.5% of what is guaranteed to kill an opioid-naive adult.
I've done fent before and from my experience, you pass out rather quickly even at sub-lethal doses.
I did 10ml/500mcg, the whole ampoule, just typed wrong. Anyways. 40ml seems too much though, I'd have to use a 60ml Syringe. And after this awful experience, I dont want to get near fent again. Will try buying a fireweapon next time, I could CTB inside a shooting range with their weapons but I dont want to traumatize other people.
 
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Guy0117

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From the picture you sent, this should be 250mcg. The usual IV dose that definitely kills you would be 2mg or 2000mcg so you "only" took 12.5% of what is guaranteed to kill an opioid-naive adult.
I've done fent before and from my experience, you pass out rather quickly even at sub-lethal doses.
Interesting. Could help to explain why I'm still alive after 2024, I chewed to mush and held directly under the tongue around that amount and had more or less similar an experience as OP had, though no Narcan. They were transdermal patches.

Also had the same idea Kiryu about a firing range, it's risky though. Want to be there with no one else around.
 
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ineedtogetout

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Aug 26, 2024
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Tried this shit thinking it would numb all the pain and I would just black out and die, but instead I couldnt breathe for shit, like I was drowning, scary stuff, had to get Narcan'd.
And I had the 100% pure stuff I got from the Hospital I work at, wasnt some shady shit bought by a shady dealer.

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I have 400mcg pecfent nasal spray in your opnion 400mcg wont kill me?
 
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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
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that means Nembutal is king

also next a shotgun or rifle or powerful hand gun to the middle of the head is instant lights out instant Death no pain. but it's very difficult to defeat fear and shoot yourself
Yes I'm scared that even if I had an immediate painless method like gun. I still wouldn't be able to do it. It's a jump into the unknown.
 
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ineedtogetout

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Dont think so pal. If 500mcg IV didnt kill me, I dont think 400mcg nasal will kill you
But you where narcaned wouldnt it be lethal without the narcan?
 
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Fentanyl is not just an analgesic; it's an anesthetic that producing sedation at surgical depth. The anesthesia induction dose is 50-70 mcg/kg. Of course, this is for someone with opiate receptor naivetƩ. So, for a 70 kg person, the anesthesia induction dose is 4.9 mg. This dose means sedation at surgical depth. Complete unconsciousness, sudden respiratory arrest and death in 6-7 mins.

Because of its limited hemodynamic effects, fentanyl was used as the single agent in open-heart surgery anesthesia from the early eighties to the early nineties. The patient remained on ventilation for 24 hours after the surgery. That's crazy. You can't use Narcan because of redistribution.

The drug you have, due to its commercial presentation, doesn't allow for bolus administration.

1 vial = 500 mcg/10 ml
5 mg = 10 vials/100 cc.

Pushing 100 cc in less than 15-20 seconds isn't realistic. This requires an infusion pump or drip infusion setup.
 
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That's kinda the point ... you go into respiratory distress.
 
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well fuck. that means ive now read reports about both sn and fent being uncomfortable deaths
 
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Tried this shit thinking it would numb all the pain and I would just black out and die, but instead I couldnt breathe for shit, like I was drowning, scary stuff, had to get Narcan'd.
And I had the 100% pure stuff I got from the Hospital I work at, wasnt some shady shit bought by a shady dealer.

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Yes scary duff....dont do
 

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