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Venting Feeling very bittersweet

Claymore7274

Claymore7274

never meant to be loved
Oct 4, 2025
119
these two months into 2026 have been real good, but my loved ones whom i depend on are starting to get tired on me, i'm happy but i know i'm a burden.

Most things i'm expecting to see of this year are coming in this month and march, i'll probably CTB late march.

It's strange, i am enjoying my days but i want to die soon, i can't wait, these mixed feelings frustrate me so :(
 
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aRose

aRose

Experienced
Jan 18, 2026
264
Yes I have good days and horrible days. I can't decide which days are best to CTB on. Right now I feel kinda normal but there's always the lil wish of death in the back of my mind, it just becomes passive rather than so blatant at times.
 
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StupidCat

StupidCat

retard
Apr 24, 2025
299
That's good. My last weeks are being fairly peaceful too, I don't think we're meant to suffer to the very last moment.
 
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