Venting Feeling super lonely

[Onelessstraw]

I know I don't have many people in my life who care. My family do the obligatory check in for Christmas and birthdays and nothing else. I have a few close friends who seem to be the opposite of fair weather friends, I'm currently going through marital issues and they are there for me to vent to. I'm feeling really low and disappointed that those who offered me help before I went in for surgery are not actually here helping me. I've been home just under 2 days. They knew that due to my issues with my spouse, I would be alone today, unable to pick up the kettle, only able to do bare minimum, struggling to climb the stairs to the toilet. I lied to the hospital and said I had care in place to look after me when I got home but the truth is, no one is here. No one cares. They love a bit of drama or anything thats a easy fix, they all say they care and are here, but no one is. If I wasn't married, no one would even notice if I was gone. I wish I'd just died on the operating table