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Feel like I'm just waiting to snap

whereispeace

whereispeace

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Mar 18, 2020
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I keep staring at my bottle of SN, and even poured a few cups of water just for the hell of it...though I'm probably not going to CTB now. But it seems like it's inching closer. Maybe I just need something to push me over the edge. I don't know. It's scary.
 
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one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
Feb 3, 2020
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faust

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Jan 26, 2020
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Hey,
You don't need to do this right now.
I think we can CTB only when we are ready.
Just hide your SN for the "better" times and try to see what happens next.
Wish you a good luck! :hug:
 
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taylor321

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ya i understand this, its a very scary feeling. If u ever wanna talk feel free to message me. I dont mind discussing dark topics
 
one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
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whereispeace said:
Maybe I just need something to push me over the edge. I don't know. It's scary.
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If i may say. If you need something to push you over the edge. You might not be ready to take the journey. I have no idea what is going on in your life ATM. Maybe waiting a bit to see what happens might help more.

just my 2 pence from the gutter
 
whereispeace

whereispeace

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one4all said:
If i may say. If you need something to push you over the edge. You might not be ready to take the journey. I have no idea what is going on in your life ATM. Maybe waiting a bit to see what happens might help more.

just my 2 pence from the gutter
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What I guess I meant to say is that I wish something would push me over the edge. I may not be ready yet, but I'm not far off.
 
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roor

roor

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There's no pressure to do it on anything but your own time or when you're completely ready. I hope you can come to peace with your feelings before deciding what to do. I agree with faust; we can only CTB when really ready.
 
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one4all

one4all

I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
Feb 3, 2020
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whereispeace said:
What I guess I meant to say is that I wish something would push me over the edge. I may not be ready yet, but I'm not far off.
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Seems like you have a reason for still sticking around then. :wink:
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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whereispeace said:
I keep staring at my bottle of SN, and even poured a few cups of water just for the hell of it...though I'm probably not going to CTB now. But it seems like it's inching closer. Maybe I just need something to push me over the edge. I don't know. It's scary.
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I totally understand. Everyday I feel like I'm gonna snap. Even the smallest things set me off anymore. :angry::aw:
I wish you the best whatever you decide. :heart: If you change your mind that is ok too. :hug:
 
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muffin222

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I understand how you feel. I feel like I'm inching closer to the boiling point everyday and then I slide back from it a little. It's like a little cycle.

But, that kind of back and forth is a big sign that a person isn't totally ready to go yet. And, that's totally fine because once we do ctb it's a permanent destination, so there's no major rush :hug:
I wish you peace with whatever you decide to do in the end :heart:
 
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