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alexithymia

alexithymia

Student
Sep 18, 2019
176
How do you feel about actually dying? To me, it's terrifying. I want to stop existing but the fear of the unknown or—even worse—some sort of punishment for ctb scares the everloving shit out of me. God, I just hate this.
 
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TiredOfLife95

TiredOfLife95

Catched the bus, goodbye everyone ❤
Aug 25, 2019
103
Hey. Fortunately I think there's no afterlife since in don't believe in God (I'm Atheist), but if he exists I am sure he would not punish you, according to the Christian religion he is a good and understanding God, he does know you were suffering too much in life, life is the real hell!
This is my way of thinking: where are we before we are born? We simply don't exist, so why should we go somewhere after death? Don't worry then, hell is here on earth.
Clearly I don't feel good about dying either, but for different motives.

Obviously telling you these things I don't want to impose you my way of seeing things, but only to make you think about different possibilities.
I hope I've been helpful, at least just a little bit, let me know!
Bye
 
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GoingSoonish

GoingSoonish

It is what it is
Aug 19, 2018
126
My biggest fear is not being able to overcome SI because that would mean that I would be stuck in my situation for a long time.
 
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Glitch

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Aug 11, 2019
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I have a friend whose a paramedic and apparently most people who pass always say the same thing.
It's weird because my dad was telling me a story about his friends mum who passed and she said the exact same thing!
Me and my friend had never spoken about it before so it freaked me out and made me feel so much better about the whole thing!
"They're all here now so it's ok for me to go"
I dunno what it means but it never seems like a scarey experience so that gotta be a plus right??
 
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BlackDragonof1989

Mage
Jul 12, 2018
526
I have been reading various near death experiences on reddit and NDERF.org and find some hope in them, but of course they can't be proven third-person per se? Still, I like to believe there is only love after this life, and this life is a school in which we learn, and that Hell is of our own making here or something. But I could be wrong, I do not know anything for a fact, but yes as Glitch said that is a very encouraging thing. My mother saw the wheat fields of her childhood (today would have been her 70th birthday and her parents were wheat farmers) in her final weeks, and I would like to believe that it was more than a hallucination. Hugs to everyone <3
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
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there are so many depictions of the afterlife and all all of them vary so much between religions and cultures, we'll never be able to tell if one those is the real one, or if there is an afterlife at all.

death is completely inevitable so it's a waste of time to worry about it, we can't change that fact no matter what so making peace with it is probably the best thing we can try.
i know how hard it is to accept that fact, but if you want to suffer a bit less, there is no other way.

and both outcomes (afterlife or simply stopping to exist) are good if you think about it. in an afterlife you get to keep your consciousness and if you stop existing, there will be no more suffering, all that went wrong with out lives, the pain everything that made you hurt will stop existing and nothing bad will ever happen.

i do hope that there is an afterlife, but i'm also comfortable with my consciousness simply disappearing. it took me some time to start accepting and make peace with it, but i feel much better now about my decision.
 
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