Discussion Failed attempts

[Al.ce]

Hi, new here. I wanted to share my failed attempts and ask if others had similar experiences. Failing makes it even harder to plan the next one thoroughly and I failed twice already.

The first time I tried slicing my veins as deep as possible (which I should have known wouldn't have worked). The second time, I thought about trying SN but I couldn't get my hands on some so I got impatient and ended up overdosing on a bunch of different otc medicine and some rat poison I found. In retrospect, that was an awful idea and not only did it hurt like hell and back, I felt like I'd thrown up my internal organs. Now, I'm just trying to find a sure way to go (best scenario would be a way that could pass as an accident - to spare the family some pain). Hbu all?

 

[depressedpuppy666]

Yeah i have allot of failed attempts even survived a gunshot (9mm) to my left temple but im still here and fully recovered so thats "great" my other attempts where with hanging (was found too soon) or poisening or cutting but not my arms but cover my whole body so i would drain slowly and painfully because i quite enjoy pain (i dont know why just do) but yeah it realy fucking sucks to have it failed and now im too much of a pussy to try agsin because everytime rehabilitation is a bitch

 

[Al.ce]

Yeah i have allot of failed attempts even survived a gunshot (9mm) to my left temple but im still here and fully recovered so thats "great" my other attempts where with hanging (was found too soon) or poisening or cutting but not my arms but cover my whole body so i would drain slowly and painfully because i quite enjoy pain (i dont know why just do) but yeah it realy fucking sucks to have it failed and now im too much of a pussy to try agsin because everytime rehabilitation is a bitch

I honestly feel that we should all be given the option to go peacefully on our own terms because failing is what hurts the most. And yeah, rehabilitation is a bitch

 

[depressedpuppy666]

I honestly feel that we should all be given the option to go peacefully on our own terms because failing is what hurts the most. And yeah, rehabilitation is a bitch

I feel the same way ive been living in a psych ward for the last 17 years of my life and im 21 now so im ready to go but peacefull

I honestly feel that we should all be given the option to go peacefully on our own terms because failing is what hurts the most. And yeah, rehabilitation is a bitch

I have 15 psychiatric disorders diagnosed and i am basicly fucked the amount of anti psychotics is crazy 6 injections of anti psychotics on max dose per week crazy shit drugged out of my mind haha

 

[Al.ce]

I feel the same way ive been living in a psych ward for the last 17 years of my life and im 21 now so im ready to go but peacefull

Same, I've come to terms with the fact that I don't want to bother living if we're all gonna die anyway. But people think there's something wrong with that very reasonable thought. Also, 17y is a long time, it must have been hard for you, I'm sorry

 

[deleted442]

Failed CO method attempt recently but feel very lucky to still have my faculties and learn from it. I plan on trying again very soon.

CO is probably one of the lowest cost and more peaceful ways to go… if you get it right.

Some folks might say why don't you put those faculties to better use? My response is mind your own fucking business.

 

[Al.ce]

Failed CO method attempt recently but feel very lucky to still have my faculties and learn from it. I plan on trying again very soon.

CO is probably one of the lowest cost and more peaceful ways to go… if you get it right.

Some folks might say why don't you put those faculties to better use? My response is mind your own fucking business.

Couldn't agree more, I've heard helium is a peaceful and painless way to go as well but I haven't tried either yet. Do you plan on using the same method next time?

 

[deleted442]

Couldn't agree more, I've heard helium is a peaceful and painless way to go as well but I haven't tried either yet. Do you plan on using the same method next time?

Absolutely

 

[Abdullah]

I feel the same way ive been living in a psych ward for the last 17 years of my life and im 21 now so im ready to go but peacefull

I have 15 psychiatric disorders diagnosed and i am basicly fucked the amount of anti psychotics is crazy 6 injections of anti psychotics on max dose per week crazy shit drugged out of my mind haha

I find it hard to believe you were admitted to a pych ward at age 6. Even harder to believe you somehow aquired a gun or survived a shot to your left temple.

 

[depressedpuppy666]

I find it hard to believe you were admitted to a pych ward at age 6. Even harder to believe you somehow aquired a gun or survived a shot to your left temple.

Fair enough but still happdned wanna see the scar and my room where i reside

 

[Abdullah]

Fair enough but still happdned wanna see the scar and my room where i reside

Sure why not

 

[Huntfish34]

I find them kinda hard to believe myself but Also find it to be very rude and disrespectful to call somebody out like that.... To discredit them, Not quite sure why somebody would just make those things up.....

Just my .02. Hope everything goes better for you OP... Thoughts and prayers. ♥

 

[leftdreaming]

My first attempt is a humorous one, actually.

I was 12 and had a poor understanding of death/suicide or mental illness and looking back I'd say I was 3/4 doing it as a cry for help. Here's what I did.
1. Cry in front of a mirror.
2. Watch myself cry in said mirror.
3. Take 3 Aleve.
-This process took me 5 minutes!
4. Cry in front of the mirror again for 2 minutes.
5. Tell my dad.