Even though I have friends I can't help but feel lonely.

[Lethargy]

Even though i have a few friends I dont feel any human connection to them. It's as if theres a sheet of glass between us. They try to cheer me up and help me when I'm down but theres nothing they can do when my brain is a defective piece of shit. At the end of every conversation where i burden them with my presence have to pretend that they managed to help me. I say "thanks" while i continue to feel like shit. I wish i could just kill myself already.