My psychologist was a specialist on PTSD and childhood trauma. She had a lot of training and experience in EMDR as well. One day she suggested EMDR, and I thought I'd try anything if it helps. But all I did during those sessions was just laugh and look at the light and be like how is this supposed to do anything, like I just didn't feel any different and nothing was happening. I felt like someone was trying hard to hypnotize me, and all I could do was laugh and say it's not working and I don't really understand how or why this ever would work and it felt ridicilous. She then started tapping me with her hand instead and talking about beaches and how I need to visualize and imagine certain things with my eyes closed and I was like I can't, I just don't see anything. She then realised and wrote down in my journal that I had aphantasia and that EMDR is not working on me because I just can't imagine things.