Venting Eating disorders

[obei]

Ive had an eating disorder for about 3 years, anorexia and bulimia, but lately bulimia has been worse. I mean I purge and all, but mostly just binge and hate myself. Everything else has gone better for me lately. I think about abusing laxatives again, just to have fast results.
And dont tell me that lax dont work bullshit. I did lose weight even if it was water weight and did not gain it back fast so I dont care about people tell me to pls not do it.

 

[endless-void]

I also have struggled with an ED since I was about 13 and even though I've never taken laxatives taking too many chewing gum really made me shit myself. I'd like to say I'm doing better but I only "eat more" (eat too much) because of anxiety lately. I can't wait to get better so I can restrict easier and stop mindlessly eating and throwing it up whenever I get the chance to. It feels like I'm never going to recover at this point.

and yeah, I also binge and hate myself. I know what you mean.

 

[passivethought121]

Same. I've had bulimia for almost 3 years. I love/hate laxatives. They've saved me from so many impulsive attempts but I hate when stomach cramps from lax prevent me from exercising

 

[L0nely]

Negative realtionship with food sucks. It consumes your mind. I could link you forum similar to this one but connected to ED, maybe it would help you in any way.

 

[obei]

U mean mpa or edsf? I am on those, also know about edc