Drugs: My psych gave me Modafinil

[AnimeSlayersFan]

Hey, I got Modafinil for my adhd, but this fucker got me on 200mg, and my mom says "Do everything that the psych says"
But I'm kinda lying about what I'm taking or not, and I feel like, kinda bad about it, but on the other hand, I can fuck myself up bad.
Idk man, it's weird, today I took modafinil for the first time and I got like, really drugged up, at the morning I was actually focused and felt like superman, then I crashed, after a really productive day, then I got better after dinner, now I'm here.
Idk, it's weird, and I have this issue with peeing often, that might be anxiety, cause when I went to like physicians they told me that I'm okay.
Then I went to one, who asked me to run the same tests as before, so I grabbed that and threw it out. Told my mom that the medic said that I'm okay and it's just psycho somatic.
I guess I will try and go outside and see if I pee myself.
Yup, that is the plan. Straight up like that. I started modafinil, and it gave me a boost in mood, maybe the dose is too high? Idk... But yea, I felt amazing.
I don't know really. This bathroom shit is what's holding me back the most but if it is just psycho somatic, why do I feel it so much? And what to do about it day to day?
I'm going to start my days doing lunges and like squats to try and build my pelvic muscles.

Drugs felt nice. Modafinil felt nice. My first theory was that I have ADHD, and It truly shut my brain up in the morning, and then I felt normal, I then, I felt happy, then, drugged up a bit. Maybe the dose is too high? Idk...

I might lower the dose for a bit and see? Or should I keep it the same till I "build tolerance to it"...
I think I might bring it down for tomorrow, idk, I have a fear of hurting myself by mistake and because of that I don't do what the psychiatrists tell me.

 

[trying ungracefully]

dk, it's weird, and I have this issue with peeing often, that might be anxiety, cause when I went to like physicians they told me that I'm okay.

I had that issue, maybe see if you can try buspar. Take it before a situation you know you're about to be triggered with anxiety or just throughout the day. It has a side effect of making it more difficult to pee which helped me. I'd get anxious with my boyfriends driving and then I would just take one and I wouldn't have to pee for HOURS.

To me it was better to not pee for hours than worry about pissing myself every 30 mins - 1 hour lol.

 

[AnimeSlayersFan]

I had that issue, maybe see if you can try buspar. Take it before a situation you know you're about to be triggered with anxiety or just throughout the day. It has a side effect of making it more difficult to pee which helped me. I'd get anxious with my boyfriends driving and then I would just take one and I wouldn't have to pee for HOURS.

To me it was better to not pee for hours than worry about pissing myself every 30 mins - 1 hour lol.

I fucking asked Gemini AI, and I might've found something that I do wrong lol, I get anxious, then push, then my pelvic floor is weak AF so it's a reinforcing cycle, I didn't know you didn't to apply effort to fucking peeing...
And then I have days I wonder if I have Autism or not... Fuck me dude hahahaha. This might be it, Imma try it from now on, I also pee sitting down which I realized ruined me. I will go in the gory details cause we are here, I push on... You know, N2, then ofc I learned to push while peeing as well, fuck dude.... And It took me adhd meds to realize this? Life works in reaaaally weird ways. Hahaha, Jike literally got curious and tried looking for it, I never before thought that I might be... Peeing the wrong way.
I guess it started with my anxiety, and I never noticed. Makes me remember when I went to the dentist and I had all this shit on my back teeth cause I was so anxious all the time that my mouth literally couldn't open wide enough for me to brush back there, even though I brushed my teeth every day.

Life's funny...
I don't know man, I feel chatty with my mom, chatty like a human being, although I felt my heart racing. I don't know if this has to be instant, or if my body needs a few days to adjust to the medication, what do you know about this drug?

 

[trying ungracefully]

what do you know about this drug?

I have no idea. Maybe try looking/posting in the adhd subreddit you'd probably find answers there

 

[klantedklaw]

Modafinil is pretty cool, it regulates dopamine which might mean your neurotransmitters just aren't able to control muscles as effectively. It also regulates adrenaline, so maybe that's why you're having these issues